Sunday, November 28, 2010



so kawaii heh?

shelter me, and i'll shelter you too ((:
fun-o-li-cious :D

shady shades ^^

yesh we sat that! how cool!

merrrlion.

so imbia! LOL.

my best shot in the night ^^

lake of dream.. where's my dream?

yepp girls, this is for you!!!!! - jess, serene, fangy

my new buddy ^^

jello beans.



to sum up all: at least we "made" it to USS - hi globe. LOL

Saturday, November 27, 2010

busker festival @ sentosa! (: totally cant wait for tomorrow!

i pray the weather's good.

currently hearing:

dont you think the guy is cute ttm *winks*

Friday, November 26, 2010

when almost every single one of you out there ended your craze on HP.. i've just started mine.

headed to cine to meet girl and caught the move-yee as promised (: thanks for getting the awesome seats with NO ONE beside in the end hee. had oishii pontian noodles while receiting to her the para of jap i actually memorized for interview :X

such great friends aint they?

prettaye.


but she snip off her hair?!


guess its courage. yet i don't have that. heehee

Wednesday, November 24, 2010



yepp, so true, yet something i like (:

Sunday, November 21, 2010


shits. i am still drowning in their world.


had an awesome night out yesterday after like couple of in-house days. UKISS lovee

ohoh. something worth cheering about: i passed my btt after 3 failure in e-trial LOL. in a deep discussion with parents regarding the next step. i still cant believe i am gonna drive on the road next time. weird but true.

koi-ed delivery to HM, and got myself a sweety toga, purple shades, hearty necklace ^^

vroom vroom (:

Friday, November 19, 2010



so beautiful right??? one day, i wish i can make a trip there (:

Sunday, November 14, 2010

the weather's getting chilly these days..

as you know my house was on aircon 24/7 hrs.. so it just got even colder at times. it was just 5minutes ago.. when i had a convo with daddy.

we were just on a topic of weather's chilly and all. and then he told me ever since he fell sick previously and on long term medication, his body wasnt as strong as before. he felt cold easily... and when his friends shake hands with him, they would comment his hands to be icy cold.

it was then that i felt a sense of indescribable feeling. i felt hurt. heartbroken. cause i'm helpless. i couldn't do anything to give him warmth.

instead, all the time, he was the one that provide warmth for me. his mighty heater hands. his warm hug. i miss everything of that.

daddy, i might be ignorant of your body condition. i might not know how terrible it is to be on medication. but please stay healthy and strong-er for our sake. we love you much more than you know.

yes, i do love you.
i just wanna hug someone and cry out loud right now. this moment.


am i even given that chance?

Saturday, November 13, 2010

another week has just passed. mostly talks and talks and still talks that i have attended so far..

i am once again lost in the wide array of choices i have after graduation. i lost the motivation i have towards university. which path should i embark on this time? am i gonna be as brave as i could in the past, choosing something different? i need advices. i need someone to decide for me. blah blah blah.

tons of projects deadlines, individual assignments are packing up like hell. i should be used to such stressful life isnt it? but why do i feel, this semester i have way too much to stomach? when things dont go my way, my mood changes. i will become short tempered. emo-ed. wanna hide under the blanket all day....

this time. besides studies, i have other things to handle. [perhaps its just myself] i'm not sure why my emotion is controlled by you. i'm sick and tired of this. i cant wait to get myself out from this cycle, but somehow i just got deeper and deeper into it.

friends, if i do APPEAR to be not-at-my-peak-of-mood, pls tolerate me. i just need a space to rant and a shoulder to cry upon.



this did cheer me up a little today. thanks chick.

Saturday, November 06, 2010

this song is beautiful...

unwell by matchbox 20.

Friday, November 05, 2010

today's one of the emo-est night i have. i actually first teared over my tutorial. then to conflicts with my parents. i seriously have no idea whats wrong. i didnt did anything wrong. i am born like this. whether you like it or not, you have to accept me.. the fact that i'm not that kind of guru who can absorb things like a sponge and understand all the modules i'm studying.

i have my own weakness. do you know how hurting it is to say that sentence right at me? if you are busy and occupied with your stuff, can you just let me know? why must you go one big bush and trying to 'send' me another message? you might not mean that negative, but i wont know, cos you didnt bother to explain.

i have never felt so stress ever before among the semesters. whats wrong man?! my body clock is screwed. my mind is flooded with tutorials and modules everything. suddenly everything just starts to weigh me down right at this moment. i have to hang on till the very last lap.... instead of an encouragement, you pulled me all the way down this very night. should i thank you for that?

supposed to picnic tomorrow. being the normal circumstances, everyone simply got their very own reasons for pulling out.. so here i'm planning to revise and understand those i was previously confused tomorrow. i wish for a holiday getaway, but i couldn't. i wish for a time off for myself, yet it was cancelled. i wish for so many so many things, but i'll never got my wish.

on a brighter side, i koi-ed today and our blog shopping orders will reached me in 3 days!


sometimes, i just find myself being so small among the crowd. i could even lose myself in there, when that happens, can you guys still find me back?

oh god, my brain is really dead. been having nightmares all along again. i need to really sleep well this time.

hide me now
under your wings
cover me
within your mighty hand..