today's one of the emo-est night i have. i actually first teared over my tutorial. then to conflicts with my parents. i seriously have no idea whats wrong. i didnt did anything wrong. i am born like this. whether you like it or not, you have to accept me.. the fact that i'm not that kind of guru who can absorb things like a sponge and understand all the modules i'm studying.

i have my own weakness. do you know how hurting it is to say that sentence right at me? if you are busy and occupied with your stuff, can you just let me know? why must you go one big bush and trying to 'send' me another message? you might not mean that negative, but i wont know, cos you didnt bother to explain.

i have never felt so stress ever before among the semesters. whats wrong man?! my body clock is screwed. my mind is flooded with tutorials and modules everything. suddenly everything just starts to weigh me down right at this moment. i have to hang on till the very last lap.... instead of an encouragement, you pulled me all the way down this very night. should i thank you for that?

supposed to picnic tomorrow. being the normal circumstances, everyone simply got their very own reasons for pulling out.. so here i'm planning to revise and understand those i was previously confused tomorrow. i wish for a holiday getaway, but i couldn't. i wish for a time off for myself, yet it was cancelled. i wish for so many so many things, but i'll never got my wish.

on a brighter side, i koi-ed today and our blog shopping orders will reached me in 3 days!

sometimes, i just find myself being so small among the crowd. i could even lose myself in there, when that happens, can you guys still find me back?

oh god, my brain is really dead. been having nightmares all along again. i need to really sleep well this time.

hide me now

under your wings

cover me

within your mighty hand..