Saturday, October 30, 2010

this song is damm cute!

who can i bunk with for 10days???

Friday, October 29, 2010

first week of sch has already been so hectic. deadlines, projects, tutorials, lectures, presentations, everything just thrown to us, right smack into our face at the same time. i felt the pressure i have never once felt so strong before.. pressure from academics, parents, peers and sometimes even the surroundings..

to kick start the semester with having to bus to school right early in the morning is not something looking forward to... afterall, daddy's been fetching me to sch almost every single day? i guess i take it for granted.. somehow this time, i got to wake up even earlier, hopped onto buses and squeeze among students and working adults, and get really nervous when time's ticking away yet, i'm merely 3/4 there..

today's been the worse day for the week? groupings. oh its such a headache. problems arose with an odd number of 7 of us. we are simply neither here nor there? couples have to split initially, each of us were unwilling to split and join other classmates and ya dah ya dah. i guess this is the last semester and everyone just wanna stick with those they love to work with and score the best out of themselves? its nothing wrong, cos i'm one of those as well. i just couldn't take the tension just now. its just intense, weird, confused. i couldn't help but to wonder is it a wrong move of mine to bring my friend into the class? i have no idea sometimes. why didn't you guys thought about how one will feels hearing those words you said? i guess this matter will be brought up now and then, until the entire semester ended. i just have to stomach all this, isn't it?

i was so glad that i have a closest khaki with me when i needed her... she will never fails to listen to my rantings and all, laugh joke do stupid actions with me (: thankew for today girl, for koi-ing and the ever-so-yummy mini steamboat dinnerr! hope you did really study a little of accounting ^^

p.s. girl, i am still kinda reminded of that picture in the book!!!! *screams*

its soon time for me to decide my route the next step i hopes to take after graduation.. i once had a dream of going overseas to study with my fellow girlfriends. leave this stressful and fast-paced country, and fleee to the paradise land! hostels, taking a stroll under the pine trees in the park, leaning against the tree having a picnic, shoppings spree, watching teevees together, most importantly, having one another by our side :D but i know, one day, i have to wake up from this dream.

cause a dream will only last for that couple of hours. still, i treasure it ♥

Monday, October 25, 2010

happie birthday stefanny!


and..................



i am so NOT ready for sch. my gawd less than 12 hrs.

Saturday, October 23, 2010

warehouse day! cabbed to jooseng road with girls. and there's like charles &keith and mitju sales!!! up to 60%! *squeals* we decided to forgo charles and headed to spend our entire fortune on mitju! LOL. cool shit. we found lots good deals, despite our 1.5hr of queuing up just to ENTER the damm lift and room.

but girls, please dont drool in the following peektures, cos there're MAD CHIO.

merely 45 bucks, for 1 bag, 1 heels, 1 flats, 1 sandals!!!! awesome! and won a 5bucks voucher during lucky dip! [gonna sneak peak 2 chio footwear nia :P] i cant wait to wear them out u knowwwww!

wedges!


bohemian isn't it?! [this not my size lah! but i decided to mian qiang a little]

this is the slippers at homeeee: mine and mommyy ^^


hello kittyyy, sweet!

carrying our shopping bags, we then cabbed to bishan for koi! ICE CREAM MILK TEA IS LOVE! wanna see how shopaholic we are? photos up nextpost! (:

oh man school is starting, but all of a sudden, i'm so not ready for it!!!!!!!! :( can someone pause the time for me?

Thursday, October 21, 2010

mommy went shopping alone, came back with a whole lot of shopping bags. i was only interested in this:




pretty chioooo ttm isnt it??! mommy gave me the one i been eyeing at - PURPLE :) but guess what. i have no idea how to open the bottle. ok to be exact is WE. hahaha. still exploring. and the shower gel smell damm nice tooo!!!! sorry gonna forsake dove for a couple of months hee.

i guess mommy and i has got really telepathy, cos ytd i bought something for her [hello kitty bedroom slippers in mad hot pink!] ok lah, the price cannot be compare... but its the thought that counts right :P

THANKEW MOMMY. [despite the frequent naggings and arguments here and there]

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

how did you guys spend your special day??

we had this craving for koi!!! hence 52-ed to bishan and then mrt to hougang for dinner @ freshly opened tori-q! ohhh and i was spending time in makan place and i kinda miss my coffee mate :(((( lucky its merely an hour hee!

ohh did i say how well were we in shopping?! we were about to get this dusty pink top yet we travelled to other outlets, end up got hui's size but no my size. hahaha guess its fated. end up we save $$ on that how brilliant!


made a simple wish in my heart @ 20.10pm! :)

to sum up all: 两个人最棒!

currently hooked onto:

Monday, October 18, 2010



i so love him to the max. wanna pinch his cheeks!! ♥ you, my little boyfriend.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

somehow i got a feeling that the previous semester did really put a test to our friendships. of course, some of us got closer with each other, some were rather more distant....
was having a casual chat that day and a question suddenly struck us "when's the last time we managed to meet up together? full strength." i couldn't answer. or rather we couldn't recall that particular moment.

oh wait. is there such a time? i wonder.. when can we all really meet up besides birthday celebrations? even for a simple thing like dinner is so difficult to most of us nowadays....

on another note, when you said nasty things about someone, have you thought about the fact that she's my friend? she's someone whom i am close with. you might not like her, but if she's courteous and nice towards you, can you try to accept her? maybe not someone you are close with, but at least a normal friend.

i hate being caught in between. it hurts and i will get really lost.


Friday, October 15, 2010

When i see your face
That's not a thing i could change
cause you're amazing
just the way you are...
And when you smile
the whole world stops and stares for awhile
cause girl you're amazing
just the way you are...

sweet enough heh. if only those i love could understands that?

Thursday, October 14, 2010

why do i feel i cant communicate to you too? whats wrong with spending time outside doing voluntary work? so now i know.. all you cared is about my studies, my grades, my future. to you, university is your everything. its still my holidays yet i already felt the stress coming from both of you. i thought you will understand. you will be different from her. but WHY. you 're actually so similar or rather, congruent.

i told him. i will be going to a children's home for voluntary work. i didnt get the support that i wanted. instead, that tone of voice came in " you alot of time is it. why cant you spend more time in your studies. " and when i told him, its actually next wk, which means its still my last wk of holidays, he shut his mouth. he added on " so? you could spend more time at home reading your modules next semester." wth! DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF HOLIDAY?

i should chill heh. phew.. sick also must listen to your pile of crap. when's the last time you played a game with me? be it uno, monopoly, chess, etc. indeed, i start to agree with buddy that our house seem like a hotel rather than a house. yeah, its more high class and all. but the atmosphere is cold.



somehow, he cheered me up a lil (:

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

"People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a
...a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life,
then introduce you to your spiritual master..."
— Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat, Pray, Love)

hmmm what should i do?
seriously damm pissed off.

how would i know dad is in the toilet and i'm supposed to open the door?! didnt you have keys?! u expected me to use my own keys to open the door when i'm back, then why cant you do the same?! why you always expect ppl to do the way you want, and you wont do it the same way! freaking ass. just because of this, you can actually scold me for going school everyday?! now its holiday what do you expect me to study! even if i stay at home, you will scold me for wasting my life too! wth. this cannot go out also cannot. i so freaking making use of my own allowance daddy gave, not even a single cent from you. what are you making noise about.

even from this tiny incident, she can even link to MY STUDIES. so what if i went poly and didnt go jc. so what if your friends children have move onto uni and i'm still in the last yr of poly. TOO BAD. i am your daughter, not them. accept it or forget it. you should have long accepted this fact. its my last semester I KNOW. but it havent start! still got 2 ultra long wks, cant you let me enjoy them! i know i must buck up my gpa, i know i must enter university, i know i cant lose out to cousins, i know i cant be a disgrace to you in front of your friends. BUT HELLO! can you let me destress for now. i already can feel the damm stress lifestyle for the next 6 mths!

SO FREAKING PISSED. just one incident you can link to so many others non -related issues. you're just so unreasonable. i know i cant out-talk you, so i didnt even make a noise about it. i just maintain quiet, cos i know the moment i start saying i will just explode off. and whats wrong with not making any noise and comments! she say i mute =.=" omg stabbed me man.

please keep your mouth shut for 5 seconds. i wonder why you have such a long breath, yet you cant swim LOL.

Monday, October 11, 2010


had a nightmare these days, but woke up happily. this may seem nothing much, but it did put a smile on my face. thanks daddy.

me: 你吃饱了啊?

daddy: 我的小公主还没吃,奴才怎么可以吃。

so cute right haha. yepp i love him alot.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

有时候在想,哭过,真的会好了吗......?

Saturday, October 09, 2010

friday used to be the best day of the week. but somehow friends do suffer the same fate huh?

we talked about it like finally. after many months and days. no i'm not exaggerating but all the while i have no idea whats wrong wit you hormonal changes and all? i don't know. the facts that you laid down for me. i read. it went into my brain. the cells did work. but somehow some of it i beg to differ.

yes i agree and admit to the largest extent that i'm pampered, spoilt, born and lived in a life that my parents been treating me for being the precious little daughter. but hey, shouldnt you know it on the first day you know me? or after so many years of friendship? i know about this flaw of mine. i tried to change for the better and i can swear across my heart, i have changed compared to the past.and of course, i am still learning but i need time. i cant change overnight instantly. its beyond logic. if you hadnt feel the slightest of it, i am afraid thats because you havent open your heart for me. you haven try knowing the actual me.

i understand you are trying to tell me what others say about me. you're just letting me know and conveying those messages to me. so do you believe it? do you take their words? thats my question to you. if so, well, i can say those people achieve their aim of hurting me. and what hurts me most was you didnt choose to put your trust in me. arent friendships about trust? yes they may have the best experience in work, but they do not acquire the full knowledge about me. i'm your friend, the one you known for nearly 3 years... yet those stories from them can pull us right apart. how great. yes those stories were true, i was fast, whats wrong with it.

.... for a moment when you talked to me, i was happy cause you got me a gift for birthday. you did remember. thats when the nightmare started.

on second thoughts, i was thinking so thats what OP is all about. i trusted in them. i accepted them from colleagues to friends. i joke around with them. i laughed and smile from the bottom of my heart to them. i gave them my true self. what did i got in return?

they are so plastic..they are so good at deceiving, quoted a literature phrase i learnt in sec school " daggers in their smiles" and "look like the innocent flower, but be the serpent under it.." yes, now i truly get what it means.

i am in a confusion right now. fix me, please.

on a lighter note, i was glad tomorrow i will be out, away from the troubles.

Friday, October 08, 2010



this movie caused me to "confess" indirectly to wilson in the games room. wth.

Wednesday, October 06, 2010

this song is so sweet.

Monday, October 04, 2010

stefanny just made my day, read this:

stefanny says:
And happy birthday once againnn
Hope u'll get ur chicken wing tonight
In bigger portion than usual :D
cute or wad? HAHA!

oh qihui, stefanny and i got into the same IS class!!!! it was indeed a horrifying experience!

Sunday, October 03, 2010

i'm gonna head out real soon!!!!!!!!!

shopping with mommy to get my bird day cake as well as my bird day presents! then off we go to meet up with daddy for dinner (:

so.................... today i'm gonna SMILE and be a happy girl!



and what's more was hui gonna sellerbread with me tmr despite her piling up of projects :D *touched*

heard this on mtv just nw:

Saturday, October 02, 2010

RIP Mrs Lee.

in fact i might not know her personally. i guess in every singaporean's heart, we do feel something for her departure.

人有生,必有死。。但既然知道自己最后的终点都一样,那人们为什么要生呢?我搞不懂为什么我们要承受这种生离死别的痛苦。对,那时生活的一部分,但那真的好折磨人们啊。

我讨厌,讨厌,很讨厌!

looking on the brightside, mommy came home with a bowl of ai xin porridge for my supper, cos i'm sick :(
oh man.. can someone tell me why i dont feel the happiness even when october has arrived? it used to be my favourite month of all. but recently i really dont feel the thrill of it.

i guess its him? her? or rather, me? i am so god damm lonely these days. can you believe i been cooping at home for consecutive three days! its nvr like this ever... wasted my bus concession. wasting my life. everyone's just so busyyyy. [not that i blame anyone of course, i know some of my earthlings are occupied with work, projects and all (: ]

not to say, even my parents are pretty occupied. daddy was so busy that he's got meeting lined up all the way till next week. even the dinner we have placed reservation for, he couldnt fetch us there.. we couldnt even set off together. oh well, in order to have a dinner, we still must meet at the restaurant itself.

sometimes i wonder, why do i have such a pair of busy parents? i know they love me very much, but you know, my mind do wander alot..

i think i'm still very affected by what has happened. when can i walk out of it?



if i am in the bunch of them, will you still able to find me?
yeshh.. i'm so lonely.


perhaps i should go out alone better than cooping at home.

Friday, October 01, 2010



saw the 2 earthlings there with me? well, there are part of the crew that made what my results what they are today ^^ and i am thankful for them.

[though jess didnt really help much cos she's sleeping with half of her eyes closed, omg yes still horrifying! but her presence and laughter do make us get HIGH]

cumulative gpa currently is 3.60.. which is still pretty far away from my target. i will work even harder for the last semester. nothing shall distracts me this time round.

-believe and you will achieve.