why do i choose to bear the misery alone and let myself suffer? hmm. i guess i'm kinda used to it. or rather, i'm afraid of every decision i made. if i choose to tell her, what will happened? what will she think of me? so all the while, i choose to ren and let it be. thats something not relation to academics. anyways, nothing's been going through my mind. its just confused confused, and getting worse each day. machaim a zombie walking aimlessly on the road, cross or not cross? got a feedback from a tutor, and her comments just hurts. its that the reality i have to face? someone, pls hold my hand, and guide me to the next stop.