just a dream.

2012-01-08T22:55:00.002+08:00

been really sick since last tuesday :/

first was plainly sore throat.. then here comes monster fever! [this's worse.. grouchy, headache, feeling damm hot.. uncomfy]

then all the partners came along with it: flu, blocked nose, non-stop coughing, sore eyes.

OMG this is the worse sickness i have this time. i swear frm now on, i will munch lesser on chocolates and candies and drink more h20 :(

i will be a good girl, really.

2012-01-06T19:57:00.005+08:00

had the most well-spent xmas and countdown this time round with my love ones! though i'm outside, i did phoned my parents at home at 12am sharp wishing them :D trying to accumulate good karma for 2012 HAHA.

xmas celeb @loof with boyf, girlfriends and their guyfriends ♥

girlfriends ftw!

hearts you ♥

oh my jess darling :D

few days later finally met up with forever alone buddies!

say HI to our dearest 姐妹花 ^.^

bff and i then headed to far east for shopping trail... but i didnt buy anything!

on the 31 dec...... finally met up with poly clique! though the response wasnt too good (sorry organizer failed badly) but... those who made a point to turn up thank yoU! :D

grumpy girls with chao-tar nugget

yummy food! nom nom...

chunhui with rachie ♥

say YO to our dancing feet!

group photo was not allowed to be put in media channels due to protection of our mighty army recruits LOLLL. still, we hearts alot. ♥♥

resting for a day..... went for another round of steamboat @ boyf's friend house...

whoots, love this photo alot so cute HAHA!! [oops. i know i'm heavy]

happy 5 months darling♥♥

2011-12-30T14:43:00.005+08:00

lets wave bye to 2011, and HELLO 2012 :D

a recap of the major happenings in my life:

ended by 3 years of poly life in NP !!!! everyone working towards their individual goals in life.

celebrated zhiyong 's 21st! :) [the first in our clique to turn legal]

my first graduation overseas trip with friends!♥♥ yes WITHOUT parents :D

the first time we three stay out tgt to watch sunrise ^^ [ignore the purpose of volunteering haha]

finally our graduation ceremony! *yippie, jumps in glee*

saying goodbye to the malaya railway....

mahjulah singapura with bff ♥!

our annual meetup with janice!! WELCOME BACK!

in between, one by one of my guy friends headed to serve the nation.. miss their gossips and crapiness :/ but oh wells, WE WILL BE BACK AS ONE soon ♥♥

before this year ends, santa has been really good to me to give me an early present in september!

happy me + happy you = happy us! ♥♥♥♥

HAPPIE NEW YEAR PEEPS! so excited for the countdown tmr!

oh before i forgot,

happie birthday daddy! am glad to be a daddy's girl! LOVE YOU!

2011-12-29T14:07:00.003+08:00

came across this site on different sweet short stories (:

girls are just like this, a simple action or sentence can make her smile the entire day ^.^

下车时导游小姐说：“请带好您的贵重物品。”
他拉着我的手说：“快走，贵重物品。”

她送他出国，说：我等你到25岁。
他暗暗心痛，原来她给的爱有限期。
5年后，他收到一封信：今天我25岁！
他紧紧捏着信，决定埋葬这段感情。
1年后，他带着漂亮的女朋友回国，本想在她面前炫耀，然而看到的却是块冰冷的墓碑。
她的墓志铭：我永远只有25岁，这样…我就可以一直一直等你。

他说他很爱我，可是每次出去吃饭都要让我等半个钟才到。每次去的还是同一间餐厅，终于我再也忍不住等待我提出了分手，他低着头说了句：“对不起每次让你等那么久…” 一天我回到了我们吃饭的餐厅发现味道变了，我问老板为什么？老板说以前有个男的总爱来这亲自为女友下厨...

2011-12-22T15:56:00.002+08:00

EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER. though i know i kinda screwed most of them... but oh wells, at least i took the courage to go for it LOL! (what an excuse totally)

year's coming to an end!!! white christmas and countdown party just around the corner WHEE!! cant wait to party with my love ones (:

the best things that happened this year will definitely be my 'newly renovated homie', getting to know my boyf and the same lot of besties (bff, fang, serene, qihui and wilson) who stayed by me during my saddest moments - listening to my grumbles and sorrows..

i've been a good girl, mr santa claus ... so prezzies please :D

2011-11-20T14:33:00.003+08:00

just totally need to vent somewhere...

how can someone character change so much over the years? why cant you feel sorry for what you've done? can i still trust the words you told me previously? you took the first step to 'leave' the clique somehow. what can i do? how do i face you next time? everything's gonna be so awkward somehow.

parents really don't know how to see my mood sometimes. i'm alr so pek chek at certain things. they still come and bother me with other issues. why are they so selfish in their own way! why can they always help their friends but not mine? so damm fcuk-up. good now cold war. i shall see how long this will last.

if they themselves want me to be a gracious young lady, pls set an example yourself.

ARGH. life really sucks man. friendships, family and studies. mock is coming up, i shall geared up my determination starting from today!!!

ahh... stressed-up bear. so awesomely cute.

ribbons is my weakness.

indeed.

HAHA!!!

if singapore has such a place where you can take a stroll with your loved one amongst the roses....

pretty colours!

i will totally melt under such pretty snowflakes.

say HI to pooh :)

2011-11-11T22:37:00.002+08:00

happy 11.11.11 (:

am so gonna mug hard for my half mock in dec!!!! but there's so many stuff i wanna do too :( temptations vs reality. oh wells. i have self- discipline all the while. [trying to tell myself this]

make a wish, it'll come true if you truly believe in it.

i love swings!

nom nom...

i remember i got for jess this when i was in kl! :D

just for you.

who stole the cookie from the cookie jar?

my childhood game :D

poof! off i go to make a silent wish!

2011-11-05T23:04:00.002+08:00

its been awhile since i last touch this space. many things happened to both friends around me as well as myself. (of course there're happy and emo stuff)

i would say, these are part and parcel of life. i may think too much at times, but there's definitely a reason that lead me thinking too much..

tumblr's pictures never fails to cheer me up.

one day i'm definitely landing my foot in paris :)

accessories are a girl's bestfriend.

such a cranky doggie.

who's my sunshine now?

yeah, indeed.

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on a side note, bestie, zhiyong and russell will be serving the nation this wk :/ kinda emo about it.. lesser times to crap, rant my sadness and gossip with.. hope we can alw still meetup like before!! even if i were to travel to other part for you :D take care and keep in touchie! ♥

2011-10-23T14:22:00.002+08:00

just a random thought of how lucky and happy i am now :)

thankyou rachel for my gossip girlfriend and being one of the planner for my twentieth ♥

to dancing feet: thankyou for everything :D i miss the times we slept together *oops*

xoxo, teddy-lover

boyboy bestie, thankyou for making an effort for the present. ♥ i really love it and you know i mean it :) gossips ftw too!

army boy! so proud of you! glad to see how u progress and pulled through bmt :D

not the complete clique attendance but i guess the full love and wishes have arrived that day ♥

and not forgetting, my rsm khakis! let's have more meetups!!

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fangfang, when's our food date gonna resume! you ditch me for quite long alr ok!

thankyou boyf for yesterday ♥♥ ILYVM.

2011-10-09T14:39:00.002+08:00

my most happening week is over! its really happening with birthday celebrations here and there, gotten my first roller coaster ride up there in uss, crashing into a lamp-post while driving, caught the first fireworks (in a way) with boyf :D

let's start with the actual day - 4 oct!

since its a tues = audit class argh... sians~ but had to drag myself out no matter what. then had an impromptu lunch with bff. settled down in brozeit (and we kinda crack the wireless password in that shop!)

the cream of veggie soup was ok... (taste a little like curry) and the pizza was so hard to consume! bad choice... we both had a hard time swallowing and finishing the food.. then we went around window shopping.. proud to say i went in h&m for the third time without getting anything ^^

into the night... celebrated with family with the green tea cake mommy bought from icing room.

[pardon us all in our home clothes]

the next day - 5 oct *excited* the day we stepped our foot into USS! and came out with a shagged body, jelly legs and bruises all over -.-"

we were practically running here and there like mad chasing aft those celebrities to take photos with.. ohhhh and i took a pic with GLORIAAAA and the penguins and kungfu panda! there were so uber cute and cuddly....

and i swear that i'm not gonna take any roller coaster rides in the near future... the human vs cyclon ride really puts me off till now... i still totally can feel the uneasy feeling of myself flying out of my seat when the roller coaster goes down all the way in high speed. (i wonder how can someone have the courage to commit suicide LOL! so freaking scary)

thankyou babe! its a fun fun day out! heart-felt words are left in the sms i sent you :)

7 oct - the day i crashed into a lamp-post while onto my 22nd lesson of driving! long long story, but oh wells. shall be forgotten soon, and i hope i can overcome the fear... nonetheless, its my sotong fang bday!!! girl, now you're as old as me!!!!!! MUHAHAHAHA! this yr bday might not be that grand for you, but i hope you'll stay strong and know that you're alw not alone in those unfortunate situations. you have us :) cheers to our sotong-ship! and IMY! :D HAPPIE BIRTHDAY!

8 oct was another eventful day with wilson's pop in the morning, meeting lots of familiar faces in the parade and belated celebration with boyf ♥

proud to be able to attend wilson's pop! its great seeing how he has really enjoyed his days in ns, forging lots die-hard buddies! and a shock that one of them actually was my kindergarten friend (turned out to be just a joke -.-) once again, grats to all my friends who pop yesterday!!!

celebration with boyf was great! caught friends with benefits and then dinner at modestos serving traditional italian food! oh wells, the appetizer was yummy, but the pasta was simply so-so.... :/ oh wells, what matters was the company i had with right? :D

now becko has a new best friend! so uber kawaii melody with the iphone case! now i'm looking forward to get my iphone white! :D thanks dear for everything (not just yesterday, but rather all the time spent so far since day 1) though there are times where we 'quarrelled' now and then, i'm glad it brings us closer all the time. and remember the promise you've made! ILY! :) - i know you'll be reading this.

2011-09-14T22:46:00.002+08:00

nail chipped :/ oh god. oh wells, shall let it grow again...

will only be heading out 3 times a week from next week onwards. (each reserve for boyf, BFFs and poly clique) cause promised boyf gonna work hard and study cum revision so that my final exams i can at least attain a B grade (2nd upper hons) - its tough lor... but i shall try..

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hmmm, i'm not sure if i'm too sensitive or what... but i feel that you aint happy for me at all? you're no longer the same as before. you hang out lesser with me.... you no longer share secrets and xin shi with me.... you're just not yourself anymore.

if you have not realised this side of you, i wish i could tell you right now. perhaps you didnt realised the stuff you recently said, but... let me tell you how much it aches and hurt me. you might not mean it literally, but i took it seriously.

i'm not sure whats wrong with you, but i still wish you're still that you... the girlfriend that holds that important place at the edge of my heart.

2011-09-11T13:55:00.002+08:00

this is the first time i took up the courage to tell our parents about each of us and how we're serious in this relationship. am so happy when mommy's happy for me too :) however, she told me to keep daddy in the dark until when i'm ready to bring him home.. which i prolly think he'll get another heart shock by then HAHA. but oh wells, at least i don't have to hide anything frm mommy now, feels so much better...

i'm indeed a happier girl now..we have just too much in common that sometimes makes me wonder "perhaps he's that one person for me..." i've never cuddle so much and cling onto someone, worrying that he will leave me... perhaps this is what they called "幸福的滋味" :D

on a side note, i'm meeting my beloved girlfriends tomorrow for our mid-autumn fest celebration!! HAPPIE MAX! i miss them soooooooooo much :( cause some idiotto keep ditching me! (hehe i know you'll be reading this)

2011-09-09T23:49:00.001+08:00

tell me what's this frigging nonsense in my life. if that's how you measure the friendship, i'm so hurt.

2011-09-04T22:33:00.003+08:00

i frigging dun understand why are there such fake people in this world? don't they feel tired pretending someone who isn't them? why are they so superficial in their actions?

i'm so glad i have friends who support me like they always do (:

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this morning a very cute convo happened:

parents were talking loudly in the living room while i'm still in bed.

mommy: 你讲话那么大声，等下你的宝贝有要骂你了。

me: 吵死人啊！！！

daddy: 哇！真的 lehh..

mommy walked into my room, tucked me in bed again... then said: 小公主。乖啦，等下我骂爸爸ok?

HAHA so cute right. love waking up to such sundays :)

and you know my neighbour called me 宝贝! LOL. frigging funny but feel loved.

2011-09-02T22:40:00.002+08:00

had one of the best hari raya this year (: met up with clique (ok, part of the clique) for a bowling session, lunch and there we go in sentosa tanjong beach! ^^ supposed to suntan.. but ohwell, weather's been really down these days. guess its crying for me HAHA.

came up with a rule from chunhui - losers treat lunch! end up chunhui and i lost (as usual) with the two professionals what to do.... but fun time spent is more important!

lunch o lunch~~ stefanny joined in! :)

off we go sitting on the tram and squeezing with the crowd to tanjong beach! psst: sentosa's toilet is really much much cleaner and conducive compared to east coast parks!

original plan was to head to upp thomson for our best cripsy prata - but god damm it was closed!!! so had to resort to longhouse~~ even if just a couple of us came, still its an enjoyable day!

afterall, i no longer hold any hopes for certain people...no matter how unhappy and pissed i gonna be, nobody will spare a thought for others. . so i wont too make much effort knowing your life.

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yesterday was one of the craziest night. i still prefer zouk to butter fact.. at least i get to sit down! and definitely its much bigger compared. (though still freaking sweating from the crowd while dancing) met a few good old friends and of course new friends! love the fact where you go there in one whole big grp and you know that you'll always be in good hands with those guy friends around you.

cute guys spotted here and there. but since its a school event,everyone's pretty decent. on a side note, something unexpected took place. admire his courage though~ but my stamina really dropped sia, drank one jug of vodka cranberry only, hangover until today HAHA. happy night though :D

2011-08-31T20:54:00.002+08:00

yeah man! i did my first own french manicure :) nice not nice not?? i feel that its so prettyyy!

pink + white tip = <3

simple yet sweety. will blog soon abt the sentosa cum bowling and finding for best crispy prata-but was closed outing :D

2011-08-25T22:38:00.002+08:00

i know sometimes i like to throw tantrums at my parents and force them to accept my mindset and ideology... but one thing i'm very privilleged with is the princess treatment i never fails to have since i'm born.

ever since i'm born, i'm like a little princess at home, 要风得风，要雨得雨 that kind of lifestyle. was spoilt max by granny where she will dote me and buy me anything i want to. even dinner and lunch at home she would specially just cook a set of different dishes for me (cause i requested to in the morning).. and many many little actions. because durian is heaty, hence parents doesn't like me to eat them, yet ah gong will go buy durians with the prickly shells and we'll open them up one by one when parents headed to work HEHE. these were the little secrets we shared. it all seems just so yesterday.... :/

mommy tend to spoil me with all the materialistic and realistic stuffs like stuffed toys, clothes, jewellery, gadgets, food, etc. many many~ her logic was "her daddy spoil her since she young, so she love that kind of feeling, she will therefore wants me to have a happy childhood too. on a side note, sometimes is she herself want to play with those toys lor -.-"

daddy wise .. hmms. his kind of actions is not spoiling me.. but rather dote on me. he knows every early heading to school is a tiring chore, so he will tend to think of a route whereby he can drop me off somewhere for a direct bus or simply fetch me to school directly. if he's on an overseas trip, he nvr fails to buy my favourite stuffs back for me and mommy (no biasness haha) even if its stuffed toy, he will get 2 big identical ones so that we will not quarrel over it LOL, and call home every single night just talking for hours (despite the charges) ..

why am i saying all this! cause..................daddy is fetching me to school tomorrow even though my school is in CBD and has to pay 2 ERPS! :D love you!!!!! (though i would still hope you can spend more time with me)

this is what i call princess treatment!!

2011-08-25T19:49:00.002+08:00

that kind of sums up my two rest days at home without school! HEHE.

school's bad without friends. yet somehow i love the feeling of being a student again. feels so much younger.. studying, mugging for tutorials, flipping notes and books - i like it!

on a brighter note, gonna have a spicy date tomorrow: happiness ♥.

2011-08-20T00:58:00.002+08:00

sometimes i really envy parents who are always there for them, physically.... i know my parents will be there when i need them. but what i want is far more simpler than that...

a little wish of mine:

when i'm home, daddy and mommy are always already home. daddy could spend a little more time with me and this family. weekends will be reserved for me. even just a simple threesome dinner together... playing a little game of chess or surfing the net, etc with daddy. gossiping with mommy. sharing my idiot moments and sorrows with them.

the reality:

daddy is forever so busy since i'm young. he has a dedicated and played a crucial role in his occupation.. further more, he engaged himself in community services.... so can you imagine how many hours is left for me then? he has SOOOOOO MANY meeetings, dinners, events, cocktail sessions, ceremonies to attend every month... i miss the times i watched tv, dinner on the same table, chit chat in the cars with him... last time in poly, i still have the chance to catch up with him when he fetch me to and fro from school... but now, its hard! :/ i really admire his determination and hardwork in his occupation and his passion in serving the community.. but sometimes i just hope to be a little selfish and wants him for myself. why must i share with others my daddy's love? :(( i know he has his own interests. but how about my interest? who spare a thought for me?

i'm glad i still have mommy most of the time to gossip with. we'll spend our nights rolling on the bed together talking about everything in our lives.. (except some secrets of our own) .... play with stuffed toys together. supper with each other's company.. and eventually fell asleep with one another by our side. only when i'm really asleep, then mommy will leave my room :)

i hate the feeling when i'm home so late, and when i opened the door, its locked and no one's home yet. i will starting thinking what's daddy and mommy doing? i dislike the fact they went out together without me too. i hates to be deserted behind. i think i need their attention ALL the time HAHA.

i've already been left behind by granny... it hurts. i havent even recover from it, let alone getting used to it.

perhaps this is the sorrows of an only child :/ thats why sometimes i hate to get home so early. i love to hang out with girlfriends and friends. they make me feel good. even just stoning and rotting outside makes me feel alive.

2011-08-17T13:42:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BFF MICHELLE :)

its how amazing time really flies..... she's my closest and bestest (if there's such a word) friend when i was in primary school... infact she's like an inseparable soul of me LOL. when there's michelle, there's me too! we made phonecalls to each other everyday until her ah gong always scold her for talking on phone for hours.. we go each other house to play during holidays given the fact we live so nearby~ (walking distance) despite the countless arguments and cold wars we have, we somehow always just patch up with one another.. cause all the time we're getting angry over really trival matters..

during art classes, we would take turns to bring materials for one another so that each would have a lighter weightload... she would bring brushes for me and palettes. and i will definitely bring all the pastel colours and crayons i have. so sweet right haha. (ok its sweet for me) i remember clearly once we quarrelled over certain stuff again during recess... (i think i was angry over the fact she promise to play badminton with me that day, who knows she played with another friend of mine first) so i refused to talk to her and treated her transparent.... however in the noon, there's art class, so i dont have brushes with me obviously. and i'm a very headstrong person, i wont admit my wrong and give in to talk to her just to borrow brushes from her~ so i seated there while everyone in the class move on to their colourings. thats when she came over, pass me the brushes silently and walked off.... it was then that i felt guilty and ought to apologise for having such a childish behaviour earlier on... (still i refuse to say sorry LOL) so i merely sat with her and share with her my materials as usual.. and somehow with that, we patch up again ((:

everything's so well until we had to separate in pri 4 while changing of classes... her studies are always far better in mine, she's strong in math and science, while i'm strong in chinese... i guess i somesort got her maths influence ~~ thats when in upper primary, i pulled up my maths and science alot from failures to an A in PSLE...though we got kinda separate in pri 4, we got back together to the same class in pri 5 and 6 where we are allowed to choose our paths. and thats when we both promised to take up higher chinese tgt. (in the mindset to get into the same class) indeed she nvr fails to let ppl down, she did very well in psle (in fact the top in our class) and move on to prestigious secondary school...whereas for me, i just have to head over to my affiliated school. i was really happy for her then. we made a point to keep in contact till sec 1-2... and we kinda drifted away since then.. also with the fact that she moved to a further place in the midst of sec school ~

oh! it was in pri 5 that hl and jess came and join us :) soon, 4 of us are inseparable! hopscotch, always late for school, getting booked by prefects, eating fishcakes, drinking jellyjoy, running down frm our classroom to the linkway, getting caught for playing poker cards in school (this is quite big affair, given we have to write an apology letter to our parents and make them sign in), laughing at chicken-neh teachers, getting our zuo ye book thrown out of the classroom cause we didnt do corrections... these were the memories we four shared...

we still do meetups till sec 2 i think... cause we have no longer common topics to talk about.. we have no idea each others' likes and dislikes.. i could no longer understand her social circle.. but one thing for sure is we never fails to forget each other birthdays and numbers.. ♥

because of her, i've a very happy childhood days in primary school. from a little girl who's afraid of going to school in primary 1 to someone who has a group of supporting clique...and that includes her too :D these memories are so precious and valuable that i'm bound to share with my children next time (if i ever have one)...

if only one day our daughters could all meet in pl and play hopscotch together again.

2011-08-14T19:14:00.003+08:00

life is full of ups and downs.. one moment you are way high up happily, one moment you are down all the way above hell a little...

celebration ended successfully despite the hiccups along the way. phew.

recently got influenced by serene my dear emo partner.. talking about it, i haven seen her for a long time! (ok just 1 wk) LOL. anyways, totally love to walk ard in the nighttime admiring the pretty sky scrapers in the midst of the busy city buzzing lights. walking alone feels great. good for the mind too. think alot alot alot.......

thanks bff ♥, serene, fangy, zhiyong, wilson, kx and russell for listening to my woes and giving me valuable advices. will keep those in mind. but now, let me emo a little longer and i will pick myself up again!

its hard not to care about someone. and when i say i don't care, i don't literally mean i don't care. i think i'm just foolish. knowing all the time i'm just an option in some ppl lives, i still place priority of them in my life. knowing the fact that i'm gonna get hurt again and again, i still place trust and concern for them. knowing that they're not worth my attention, i still fall in it deeply.

that's the stupid side of me :/

2011-08-11T13:07:00.002+08:00

with the two girls starting school, life's alot alot alot dull & boring for me... oh wells, my school's starting soon anyway!!!

caught "something borrowed" yesterday! very much a 4/5 star-rated movie! kinda like the twist here and there... its more of a love comedy kind of film.

pretty female lead! - like her hair :)

oh-god-so-charming-eyes.

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i guess tonight i need some time alone just walking and roaming around~ it will be a good time for me to relax and breathe in some fresh air!

i have a whole lot of stuff wanna explode out. but i cant? feels terrible. i wanna talk some sense into her. but i cant too? i tried and failed.

2011-08-07T23:33:00.002+08:00

did you had a good 七夕情人节?? i did! :D

though i do not have my the other half with me, i've the bestest friends on earth! to reward ourselves on this special day, i went for threading with fangy since school is gonna reopens soon, and we ought to look pretty pretty in school right :P

lunch with serene and off we go to changi airport for a tourist route !!! we spotted fang's distant relative and huiling's colleague and many many interesting events. oh~ on our way back to deliver our 爱心 popcorn to huiling, fang and i had a super hectic and challenging games just for idiots. HAHA. hi - idioooo ♥

a sum of our singapore-hongkong route:

the yummy food to fill our stomachs

爱死你们了！

2 of you starting school tomorrow, jiayou! and you'll survive the semester just like before :)

2011-07-31T23:42:00.004+08:00

was reading this essay, and really love how they truly describes it. thats the beauty of chinese :)

有些人不能在一起，可他们的心在一起；

有些人表面上在一起，心却无法在一起；

有些人从没想过要在一起，却自然而然地在一起；

有些人千辛万苦地终于在一起了，却发现他们并不适合在一起。

就算最后，我们没有在一起，至少爱，还是会在一起。

爱在一起，就在一起！

小时候，希望自己快点长大，长大了，却发现遗失了童年；单身时，开始羡慕恋人的甜蜜，恋爱时，怀念单身时的自由。很多事物，没有得到时总觉得美好，得到之后才开始明白：我们得到的同时也是在失去。

有时候，你等的不是事情，机会，或是谁，你等的是时间。等时间，让自己忘记，等时间，让自己改变，放弃便是得到

假如你想要一件东西，就放它走。它若能回来找你，就永远属于你；它若不回来，那根本就不是你的

当明天变成了今天成为了昨天，最后成为记忆里不再重要的某一天，我们突然发现自己在不知不觉中已被时间推着向前走，这不是静止火车里，与相邻列车交错时，仿佛自己在前进的错觉，而是我们真实的在成长，在这件事里成了另一个自己。

忘记一个人，并非不再想起，而是偶尔想起，心中却不再有波澜。真正的忘记，是不需要努力的。如果无法忘记他，就不要忘记好了，真正的忘记是不需要努力的。

2011-07-31T21:30:00.002+08:00

this weekend most happening event will definitely be........ my first virgin volunteering @ osim triathlon :D

all thanks to this volunteer, had a mini emo heart to heart session with girlfriends and watched the first sunrise together in east coast :) its so pretty. and the sea breeze is just so COLD. brr. make our hands stands. but worth the wait.

its really been a long time since i last stepped into east coast. its a very special place with alot of memories i have. everytime i been there, it never fails to make me smile :)

yippie volunteer- thats me! [with a $20 allowance hee]

love you two toots :D

oldest with youngest neh neh :P

i love the osim shirt more than you :P [ok just kidding hehe]

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on a side note, i'm trying hard to get myself involved in meaningful events now. i'm always interested in social works volunteering.. in poly managed to engaged myself in leo club activities. hence now since i've no cca and projects in my new course.. i shall be determined and sourced for long term volunteering :) anyone got lobang tell me too! even my dad asked me whether i'm interested to join him in grassroots activities, but as the youth wing committee members.. guess with such things, it can shape my leadership skills too!

most importantly, seeing others happy makes my day!

just like many of u know, i hate kids to the core. but yesterday a very small incident simply makes me smile retardedly non stop. all because this little boy is urgent to pee, hence i let him go first... he came out telling me with his most innocent look a 4 yr old kid can look - "thank you jiejie" maybe because i dont have someone call me jiejie since young, i feel so so so happy at that very moment. i feel i did what an older sister has done. HAHA. omg. ok when its just such a SMALL tiny wheeny thingy. thickskinned. but oh wells, I'M REALLY HAPPY.

2011-07-27T22:22:00.002+08:00

many things can just happened within few days.

so..... most of my girlfriends are starting school real soon. good for them, bad for me. cause i've lesser time spent with them :( thats sad really. but its ok! i know will always try to catch up with one another via sms/emails/fb/phonecalls~

everyone's just heading to different paths in their lives. ought to be happy for them, yet sometimes i cant help but feel a little upset. because of this fact, we've lesser time together, lesser common topics to chat about, lesser things in common, and most importantly things will definitely change. and such changes are things you can see with naked eyes.

telling yourself you're fine is the best solution. at least it helps to calm me down. this june and july's been the happiest month this year (so far) with girlies:

act ang-moh sotong fang ♥, serene my 超可爱好朋友 and blur-to-the-max ah hui.

as usuals, tumblrs photos makes me happy!

this reminds me of marble slab creamery icey cream! :D

a bed of roses.. sweettt... i prefer it to be purple!

my long lost friend!

need to get my piano fixed soon.

finding this colour for so longg :/

happie 3 friends. (i have mine too!)

2011-07-25T23:52:00.002+08:00

the lyrics for this song is too beautiful.

收藏在眼眸常徘徊左右爱猜到没有 愉快玩笑后能全然退后你开心就够  这种感觉太亲厚讲一千句也不够 假使讲了你听到后或会走 这种恋爱太罕有不需真正拥有 成全衷心祝福然后就放手  放手放开所有彼此更自由 放手其实我绝非爱得不够 放手豁出所有还有这个好友 已经已经足够   遥远是宇宙静静在背后去看守就够  这种感觉太亲厚讲一千句也不够 即使一刹有过冲动挽你手 这种恋爱太罕有不需真正拥有 成全多舍不得仍然是放手  放手放开所有彼此更自由 放手其实我绝非爱得不够 放手豁出所有还有这个好友 已经已经足够  放手我的牵挂找不到尽头 放手期望你幸福甚麽都有 也许爱很深厚然而我早看得透 放手至可拥有

2011-07-23T20:27:00.002+08:00

i'm not a total christian nor a total buddhist.. hence i chose to believe in both.

like what i always do when i'm confused and needs a guidance, i'll flip through the bible or surf through the net. and today i've got this:

'There is no burden too great to bear when it's shared with me.'

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on a side note, I LEARNT VERTICAL PARKING TODAY! a step forward to get that license ^^

2011-07-23T01:02:00.003+08:00

vamp diaries has really nice songs. songs that bring me to bed every night :)

1. Only one

2. Come back when you can

3. It is what it is

2011-07-21T21:28:00.003+08:00

its hurt to see how siblings got closer to one another, yet the cruel fact is i have none and will be lonely forever :/

oh wells. just grumbling cause have a sudden thought that i'am always closest to the maternal side of relatives. yet they were the ones that made me teared the most. cousins have always been my true blood siblings kind of relationship since i was young. i was their centre of attention, and they dote me most (probably because i'm the youngest among them)... but nonetheless, we as one whole group is that c-l-o-s-e.... we laughed, played around, sing karaoke, danced, gossips about each of our own parents, etc...

yet this fact changed the moment each and every single one of them start dating, got married and has their own family... i know i shouldn't be jealous of them. i know now their attention has all been adjusted to their own children and this is a process i must learn and adapt... yet i don't understand why the drastic change? why cant they still show that small glimpse of concern to me? even not that frequent meetups and all, must it be only during cny that we get to meet? partly i guess because of their children who 'stole' the attention of my cousins made me hate children that much. i don't understand why such little monsters can have the power to change someone.

indeed, my cousins who are real siblings themselves still keep in close contact with one another.. infact because of their own children, the pair of brother and sister got closer in relationship. then i began to wonder. have they forgotten my existence? have they forgotten the fact that their little sister here still yearns for their pat on the head? the hug from them? and the smirk and joke to make fun of? :/

perhaps this is what's the difference between real siblings and cousins. i can never replace any of them and be part of their family. i'm born to be a loner, that's the downside of being an only child.

2011-07-19T00:20:00.002+08:00

世上真的有好多你不知道的事。活在世上好难哦，好烦好烦。做一个不了解自己的人更难。

2011-07-13T22:01:00.002+08:00

its the second time this year i have to experience the whole feeling again.. the fear of losing someone close to you..

i hate it when my mom calls and panicking and all. telling me not much of details just making a mountain out of the molehill. -.-

but oh wells. the feeling is over. sunshine is out once again.

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i guess after all these years and times of shocking news. i've immune myself to it and learn to hide and cover up all my fears and worries externally. last time if such things do happen, i'll text some ppl and need their assurance to calm myself down.. but as i grow up right now, i know it will just make another person worry for me and lose concentration in work/ studies.. hence i choose to keep it to myself.

and because of this, i have a very brave shield now.

2011-07-12T00:10:00.002+08:00

one of my aim to be a healthier girl this holiday - headed to my first water sports activity KAYAKING!

oh wells, as we four do not have a waterproof camera.. no pics was taken :/ could only grabbed photos from the web. oh sigh.

ITS OK! cause we had real fun ^^ i went into the water twice! that equates me to a happy girl! water's been always a phobia to me. not knowing how to swim was because of not wanting to let go the hand of instructor's or friends.... i wonder why.

but since i went into the water, i considered quite brave? :D

2011-07-09T13:35:00.002+08:00

headed to butter fact on wednesday~

it's a oh-so-good yet i don't wanna go there again kinda experience. though its a little that dangerous to go without any guy friends, still we survived :D and i swear i wont drink for one week. hurts man to drink frequently within a week. can simply died.

i'm sorta a little vampire zombie driving on the roadside today.

two sneakpeaks of myself before i stepped out to club:

happie face to part-teh with girlfriends after several months :)

say cheese!

and off i go :)

2011-06-30T23:58:00.003+08:00

its been a while since i really visited tumblr.

30062011 officially declares the last day of my 3 mth job as an account assistant. i really love the times there. very friendly and helpful colleagues. people whom i have the urge to regard as friends. thankyou.

so my parents have started the xxxx rounds of niam-ing about entering local uni. i guess they will continue to be disappointed on me, look down on me and stuff until i officially graduated from uol. life sucks. looking at my besties shortlisted one by one, yet i'm not the one. this kind of feelings feels awful. yet on another side of me, i'm really happie for their admission from the bottom of my heart. i'm just disappointed with myself. sadded with my achievements (wait. do i even have that?)

forget it. tumblrs is the best :/'

having a wardrobe like this is my dream.

polka dots :D

pretty!

shall learn to deco my nails :)

ice cream is the best times spent with girlfriends.

big ben :D wait for me, i will visit you one day!

which girl wont love roses? i prefer purple ones :)

nom nom~

once my love.

2011-06-22T09:46:00.002+08:00

i am just so frigging fed up with everything that's happening in my life right now, this moment.

i have a bad feeling that i am missing my deadlines for applications now and then! acca class is starting in early july and i have yet to decide or apply for it! i'm 80% inclined towards acca, however i just couldn't get the encouragement and assurance from those whom i trust most. sometimes all i need is just assurance from you to tell me that my decision is right and the fact that you'll support me.

the hard truth is no you guys didnt. neither do i get it from my parents nor my close friends. (except for two of them). my parents are still harping on the fact that i couldnt get into any local uni since the day i failed my application and appeals. they are still disappointed on my results. they are still nagging over this fact. everytime i pick myself up to discuss this matter with them, it will end up in no conclusion.... when yesterday i told them how about taking acca? so was finding for the acca flyer which i took previously (however i have no idea wth it gone to! lost it.) because of that, they say "if you don't have the heart to study, pls do not waste our money"..

i simple just accidentally lose the frigging piece of paper. what's wrong with that. even the suggestion of uol doesn't please them. because of its 4 mth study 8 mths holiday kind of lifestyle. they find its a total waste of money and i wont be consistent in my studies. oh great. so now what? WHERE AM I SUPPOSE TO GO?

if money is that important to you then frigging don't give birth to me since i will be very much of an liability to you.

even supper doesn't seem to tempt me now, been sleeping at 11pm these days.

out for dinner - meet friends - go home - hide in my room - under the blanket - sob to bed.

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what's worse is i seemed to lost someone who's very important in my life. it just feels different? no longer the same mindset, the same perspective, the same interest, the same topics to chat on, etc.

2011-06-21T10:08:00.000+08:00

2011-06-20T13:37:00.002+08:00

safely back from kl trip :) will blog soon on that!

on a side note, relieved to get a reply from j regarding the issue. i actually teared after reading it. i feel much much better.

i start to wonder am i too sensitive or have you really changed? are you the still old person i know of? its scary how someone can influence you so much. it hurts for me to see your transformation.

why not you yourself tell me what to do? :/

2011-06-12T13:29:00.005+08:00

260511 - manling officially graduated :D

parents came along with my four bestfriends - huiling, jess, serene and fang (fang i counted you in, cause i know your heart is with me that day :P)

graduation doesnt come easy. many nights of chiong-ing of projects, mugging like crazy for exams and common tests, last-minute consultation with tutors, quarrels with cliques, etc.. i'm proud to say i enjoy my three years in ngee ann alot, forging new friendships from day one and building them up till now :) i know they are the true friends that will stay with me all the way.

to sisheng: though i only know you after the shanghai trip, am glad for every outing we had together (: your quietness and shyness has definitely put me in a very curious situation to know you more! HAHA. its always good to know someone's staying so near you, hence a mrt or bus mate all the time! have fun in ns and we'll catch up soon!

to stefanny: it's amazing to meet you really! all the way from singapore poly's interview to how we both eventually landed in ngee ann's DPA :) my first friend made in poly! HAHA. the last few semesters of project work and tutorial classes has definitely brought us together closer. all the best in your future plans, and don't forget me when you're in australia or indo! ^^v

p.s. rmb your promise to invite us to your wedding HA!

to qihui: hmms. our friendship is the only one that went through alot of ups and downs. yet we both pull through, didnt we? well, like what you say, its such things that brings us closer.. we both have our very own bad habits and attitudes sometimes, and thanks for tolerating me all the way like how i did for you HAHA. oops. anyway, see you soon for kl trip! you better not be too scared for plane rides and snore loudly in the night, cause i'm not gonna tolerate that definitely! :P

to zhiyong: you're someone very special in my life. i thank you for that. whatever has happened, i hope an ending will put a stop to it. all the best in ns and take care! we'll definitely catch up soon! :)

to chunhui: the cute girl in our clique who has never fails to brighten up my life! thank you for being that sunshine in us! stay cheerful and happy! and we love you much! <3

to denise: i really miss those times we had in primary school when we were really close friends. those days where we play hopscotch, study hard for PSLE together, etc... those were the times. i know we couldn't turn back time to how it was, but am still happy to see you once again in np and know how well you're doing be in now or in the future :) girl, wishing you all the best here, and those memories will always be there and belongs only to us.

to russell: YOU little cheeky boy haha! you'll definitely find that girl that loves you! love the times we bully one another (oops sound more like i'm bullying you most of the time) and gossip about some people (you know who) HAHA. all the best in ns, but before that, we'll catch up soon on 25th! CIRCUS with flap flap and teddy <3

to wilson: thanks for your constant encouragement and advices all the time. it gives me alot of strength and courage to carry on. with the live updates all the time from you, was relieved to know how things go for you in ns. meanwhile, wait for my another round of surprise :) *winks*

to sharon: a postive and passionate girl is what my memory has for you. your passion and determination in handling things is something i truly admire for. all the best in your studies in aussie and we'll catch up as long as you're back :)

to rachie: i've truly seen your changes from secondary school up till today. be it is something i agree with or disagree with, i am glad you always keep us updated of your current lifestyle. shoppings and outings soon okay! I MISS YOU :) and all the best in SIM life.

to aneza: my new neofriend! HAHA. so happy that we're classmates, close friends, jap mates, colleagues (for now).. WOW. so many types of relationships. we're getting complicated girl. HEHE. anyways, love to see you determination in everything you do. that's aneza spirit! all the best in your uk plans and hope everything goes well for it, but DO NOT FORGET ME, the only friend of yours who loves teddys so much :) and i'll take care of the scotland prince!

to lingying and jonathan: love to see how sweet sweet both of you is :) last long and don't forget inviting us to wedding! stay strong in whatever that happens and i know jonathan will protect and love you like how we do! catch up soon! don't MIA liao! HAHAHA <3

to my parents: one sentence - THANK YOU FOR STRENGTH, COURAGE AND ENCOURAGEMENT these 3 years.

to serene & fang: love to talk to you both! despite the fact that fang always bully me :( HAHA! but love the way how april vs october that combi! gossips and outings soon k! thanks for always letting me know i can find you girls 24/7. and serene will still reply me even if her phone can only type ailen language! hehe. LOVE YOU TWO, my two sotong besties! <3

to jess: JAZZY! coming to think of it, its already 13 yrs of friendships we shared! OMG. how long is that. we pull through many hurdles than many others couldn't :) thank you for everything like encouragement in my darkest moments. and keeping every single bear bear i gave you despite the times you move house! HAHA. stay strong in everything happens, and all the best in uni life! LURBB YOU bestie! <3

to huiling: SLOW sotong HI! HAHAHA. i shall keep this short and sweet, so........... just wanna tell you, thank you sister. be it what's gonna happened in the future or something very soon, i hope our sisterhood will remains. HEART YOU DEEP DEEP <3

these are the little angels in my life and i'm thankful for every single one of them. if i've miss you out, i'm sorry. but what you did will definitely leave an impression in my life.

for now, i will start squeezing my brain juice for the next destination.

2011-06-07T09:33:00.002+08:00

spoken to serene about this issue:

but i still clueless of what to do? should i continue to lie and ignore my true unhappiness? or tell them the truth in a stake that things will change?

wait. but things ARE already changing isn't it? if you all have realised.

friendship is a type of relationship. and having to built that relationship take years. yet it is so brittle that i'm afraid i'll be the one that destroys it.

should i or should i not? :/

2011-05-30T11:39:00.002+08:00

i have officially graduated from NP as an accountancy student! (:

was really happie and thankful for the support frm parents and girlfriends. will do up a post soon on that.

meanwhile i should start pondering about the issues been avoiding for long. so what should i do next? to work? to take up acca? to pursue a degree in uol? to appeal for local uni and cling onto the thought that will nvr come true?

i left 2 days to online appeals. but which step should i take?

2011-05-24T13:02:00.002+08:00

officially got rejected by all three universities. though i already expecting this outcome, when it happens, there's still a need to pluck up courage to face the cruel fact.

perhaps its true that there's no need to cry over spilled milk, but... its still disappointing. i promised that i hold my tears till the very end. and when it drops, its already the limit which i couldn't help it. my brain has so many whys. plenty of them.

why do i work so hard, yet i couldn't achieve what i wanted?
why is it that i can never do my parents proud?
why is it i have to disappoint them again and again?

in my close to 20 yrs of life, i have not accomplish anything that's worth parents to bring it up and be proud of. be it academics - i wasn't even in the dean's list, or top cohorts in secondary school, etc. piano - i didn't even complete the entire course. i gave up halfway as i gave excuses that i am busy with school stuffs. abacus - i left the last degree course to fully complete it.. but i gave up too because i wasn't interested by then.

what more could i ask for? my parents send me for all the extra enrichments that many children were not offered to... yet i let them down all the time.

if you ask me, is university that important? i would say yes, to me. i have never regret taking accountancy these years. its something that make me more aware of economics and the financial market which i totally have no idea on previously. it makes me feel grown up and has more topics for family discussion.

how pro can i be? study until no school wants me. LOL. mommy has been very understanding and all. trying to console me and encourage me on. i know daddy on the surface been giving me advices but deep down, he is disappointed with me. from the tone and the way he says, i can feel it. i know, because i'm his daughter.

perhaps graduation is not something to be proud of? afterall, my results ain't the best out of all.

really appreciated friends who encouraging me on, i know i have to move on in life, and this is perhaps just the first huge setback i have encountered. but its hard to actually achieve this you know brainwashing yourself, telling yourself how happy i should be since i work hard with no regrets and all :/

grant me time.

2011-05-19T10:26:00.004+08:00

yesterday was a roller coaster day for me..

thank god everything is fine now. or rather, better. the same old feeling of worrying for someone is scary. i never like that, perhaps no one likes it. the thought of what might happen at the next moment, what's the last thing you did to/with him or her, etc. such flashbacks will naturally come by~

a sigh of relief right now.

that day i actually dreamt girl came back from her holidays 2 days earlier -.-" i miss her too much? :/ that night i called her forgetting the fact that she went for holiday,after nobody picking up the phone, i realised OH, she on holiday hor....

no wonder my house phone is so quiet these days.. but she's coming back tomorrow ^^v

daddy's been pretty busy these days with the budget and wrapping up of accounts for elections and all, one week only 1 weekday and weekends are back for dinner :( i hardly even have time to talk to him cause the moment he's back, he switched on comp to continue his accounts again.

i have yet to find the chance to talk to him about my backup plans. cant he spare some time for me? as such, i will have some random thought that did he still remember my graduation next week....

2011-05-17T22:17:00.004+08:00

last year, i watched this drama halfway, and put a stop to it, cause heard that its not much of a good review afterall... since now cable is showing, i kinda got hooked to it! so this vesak day, i spent the day finishing up the drama 'playful kiss' :)

all you have to do is to focus on him HAHA. so cute ^^v

and one thing for sure, is that drama will always be drama, a place of our fantasy ~~

of course not forgetting this awesome ost of theirs:

2011-05-16T10:56:00.001+08:00

on my way to work, with the usual habit of plugging in my ipod.. heard this song that i never knew it was inside all along.

and so i'm hooked on it :)

elopie, hope to see you on my grad, even if its just backstage!!!! my prayer works (you get what i mean)

2011-05-15T12:04:00.008+08:00

its a very happening weekend thanks to zhiyong who's the first to turn LEGAL :)

few of us spent a really long time planning this whole event, and am glad that it turn out not-too-bad given that ALL of us were present for once. thanks people for all the attendance, greatly appreciated.

so off we goes to "everything with fries @ holland v"

The best group shot ever *squeals*

its a cosy little cafe, good for meetups and all.

cookies & cream birthday cake from bakerzin :)

being accountancy students ourselves, we have to make full us of our knowledge even on birthday! Debit wrinkles, Credit youth! HAPPY 21st!

some lovely shots in the cafe itself!

P.S. sisheng looks unusually cute in the third photo.

chit-chatting & camwhoring session along the roads:

not forgetting, poloroids shots :)

i really love this clique of mine!! true friendships that will last.

lastly, KOH ZHIYONG!

HAAPPPPPIIIIIEEEEEEEEE TWENNNNNTYYYYYY-FIIIRRRSSSTTTT! ^^v

2011-05-12T11:21:00.000+08:00

family discussion yesterday was on holiday trips in june.

6-8june: parents heading to genting with third auntie~ reason for trip: mommy got 2 family suites free for genting hotel.

pls note: this trip is WITHOUT me :/ [anyway i also not interested in genting HA]

17-19 june: KL trip with poly clique~ yay! without parents, how happy can i get :)

looks like june's gonna be kinda happening for me!

oh. and please keep dear and her family safe.. she always got this earthquake curse with her :/ lucky she last minute change plans from spain to switzerland, cause spain got earthquake last night! grrs.

screw the globe.

2011-05-10T16:42:00.003+08:00

was on a heart to heart convo with mommy yesterday.. and got to realise how much daddy actually involved himself in politics. according to mommy:

during 1991, its also the election year, at that time mommy was few months pregnant with me, however despite this fact, daddy still involved as heavily in politics as in the past. he continues to help out and support which accumulates his achievement today. i understand his joy of helping the residents and his sense of achievement when accomplishing such things that his interest is in. for that, i totally respect him.

i was simply amazed the fact that mommy would actually let daddy spend so much time in it when he should have since she's pregnant... and that explains the case where whenever i tag along with daddy to his constiuency, all his friends will exclaimed that they seen totally how i grew up, from mommy's stomach to today. how far i've grown, etc.

this is something i really didnt know until tonight. i know mommy wanted me to understand how hard dad's life has been and how well he actually manages his time for work, family, friends, politics and volunteering. i been complaining these days that he's spending lesser time with me these days due to elections, now.... i will try to be more understanding.

thank you mommy for letting me know and daddy, i am so proud of you~

2011-05-08T15:17:00.002+08:00

feel so lost right after the fact that i'm under opposition hands now.

let's see the results and outcome they can do for the residents. indeed, we now give them a chance to perform, we shall sit back and watch. how well they can actually handle every issue~~

oh wells. there goes my lift upgrading plans, higher house prices, kindergarten, etc.

i shall remain calm and watch how the next five years will go.

2011-04-28T23:31:00.002+08:00

its been long since i visited tumblr - my hideout :D

besties are like marshmallows,stick with you forever and stay sweet always :D

oh! recently bought 2 new shoes - bronze flats and purple loafers. and i just realised my cny shoes haven wear -.-"

looking through past photos feels great :D

2011-04-28T11:23:00.003+08:00

should i get this swatch - miss cassis watch?! its only $66 bucks....

so tempteddddd! its really prettyyyyy.

fang, white easy dirty leh, then wont last long :P

2011-04-26T12:50:00.002+08:00

dabao sushi for lunch!!! simple but yummy.

oh man this week i've got damm bad cramps. everyday popping in 6 pills has currently no effect on me now. at this rate, i bet i'm gonna need injection soon -.- sometimes the good old method of using a warm bottle around the abdomen still works. the effect is slow, but most importantly, it works to make me slp peacefully.

onigiri :D

these bento sets are way too cute to be eaten....

doesn't this reminds you of POKEMON - SNORLAX !

back to drama (yesh, i'm working i know).

2011-04-23T22:27:00.002+08:00

MY FIRST DRIVING LESSON FEELS GOOD!

that's my instructor car - Mitsubishi lancer...

now i finally understand why my dad dread being stuck in a traffic jam. and i really hate red lights too. anything that have to keep me waiting with my clutch pedal on - ewwww. LOL.

i should start training my leg muscles too! :) got a stupid cramp after lesson -.-

and to pamper myself, i bought 3 apparels ^^v

2011-04-19T09:32:00.004+08:00

guys have been receiving enlistment letters one by one... its hard to imagine, but things really gonna pick up fast. soon they will be enlisting and hence lesser time for meetups. relationship drift apart, ultimately not that close anymore? is it just me thinking too far? why do people have to undergo such stages. you know, having to bid farewell when we're just about to got closer.. afterall its just ns, i hope.

miss euuuuu!!! why cant i find you onlinee fang! :/ gotta help me look after school, while i'm not around ah :)

2011-04-18T00:51:00.002+08:00

last thurs headed to ikea and i bought for myself this clippers for lazy bummers like me. and of course a wonderful time with sotong fang and ah hui~~ meatballs, pasta, mushroom soup, chix wings, ice cream!

and i found my purplish loafers from charles keith too on the same day! :)

oh! did i not say the most important issue on that day! I PASSED MY FTT! a step nearer to license... oh well, still long i know. but u know just the thought of it eggcite me alot!!!

its a four day week!! yay!!! looking forward to gooodie friday!

i miss my elope partner on msn with me everyday. she's my motivation in work, my joker for the day, my source of joy and updates for current affairs every 6 hours in the daytime. [HAHA! i think i'm just crapping, girl pls dun think too highly of yourself :P]

the happy-go-lucky girl ! thanks for accompanying my throughout ftt!!! LOVE YOU!

my princess room!!!! :D

I MISS YOU, on msn.

2011-04-12T23:32:00.002+08:00

life's been pretty bored over in the office. but oh well, another 2 months i guess i can last till then. but had to admit my colleagues are really nice. [minus off all the kids, mommy preaching]

over the weekend, am a very happie girl thanks to my girlfriends. they are all so awesome. even a short meetup and night outings, shopping sprees, catching up just so sweet. we're even meeting up on thurs for ikea outing!

oh talking about thurs, its my ftt. 2 more days. GG-fied.

ooo. look how cute her ass is.

nom nom.

i wanna get a puppy!

i always love to see this somehow :D

2011-04-05T10:44:00.003+08:00

was chatting with my colleagues. even they start to worry for me being the only child when my parents are gone in the future..

they felt my parents are simply too protective of me. indeed. i feel this way too. yes i do treasure this privillege. but i guess i have to toughen up a little and learn how to say NO. because of my fragile personality, even they can tell i'm someone who hardly says no. yeah. coming to think of it. when's the last time i said no?

when friends require assistance and help, i'll gladly say yeahs.

when friends ask me do a de-tour at times, i'll say yes again.

when people ask me to head over to their area, i'll nod my head too.

when comes to choosing of dinner/lunch, i have no stand of my own.

no matter how inconvenient it is to me, i'll still agree to their requests.

when how unhappy i am, i'll still attend the occasion.

the list goes on.

why is it that hard for me to say no? i'm just not firm enough. i merely go along with the crowd. be it food, places to go, interests, etc. twenty years of life going on like this. soon its time for me to wake up. but first my parents have to let me go alittle.

2011-04-03T15:51:00.002+08:00

happie birthday serene!!!! so two of my darlings have turned 20! oh god. we're getting older each day. but wiser i hope ^^

had a mini electronic htht with wilson yesterday. with that, i made a decision. i decided to pluck up my courage and be truthful to others and myself. i guess the time's here. indeed, it will never end when none of the party is making the first move. everyone has pride, but there're times when we have to put them down. and i know this time its my turn.

on the other hand, my further studies options is still hanging there :/ let's take one step at a time.

currently into small furry animals!

i think i'm under the fail again category :(

that's life for now.

it'll be cool to have such traffic light!

the blue box that every girl hopes to receive in her life.

hmmm too much marsh, but too little mallow. [if you watch HOP, you getta what i mean!]

oh man. tmr's work once again BOO. 11 days to FTT.

2011-04-03T13:37:00.002+08:00

I hate that feeling. The feeling when you’re sad but you have no idea why. You just are. And in your mind, you’re thinking of all the bad things in your life and apply it to your emotions, making you even more sad. Then people ask you what’s wrong and you have nothing to say. You end up sitting there, quiet, while it seems as if everyone, but you, is happy.

2011-04-01T22:59:00.002+08:00

happie birthday dear! its awesome seeing one another growing up and spending another year of friendship together.

cheers to our longlasting sisterhood!

2011-03-31T23:03:00.002+08:00

tumblr's always been my other hideout. they have such nice peektures that tells exactly how i feel sometimes.

elope parter, spotted paris! let's go darling.

deep and sweet love.

speaks perfectly of me in my parents.

i love this wedding gown!

recently been visiting this doggie pet shop after lunch!they're so cute. has always wanted a puppy since young, but daddy disagree cause it requires alot of commitment. indeed, when i can't even commit myself in a relationship, what's more to say a puppy (a life).

haven found the right path to go. left or right? up or down?

2011-03-30T23:25:00.000+08:00

In the journal paper of my heart,
I have written a journal entry.
Debiting your love and your affection.

Darling you write the narration,
Your first love, I had already adjusted
On the ledger-folio column,
Any way our relations are true assets

On double-entry system In addition,
our love is true real and tangible
You debit-what comes in,
I credit-what goes out.

Your beauty is the capital of business.
My eyes are stock in trade.
Let us enter into transaction,
You secretly give me a trade discount,
I openly give you a cash discount
And thus my partner, Our trading and
profit-loss account will show super profit

My dear let us reconcile,
all our errors and total the
trial balance of our affairs
arithmetically without maintaining
any suspense account.

In the balance sheet of our
life Our children will be our
true assets and liabilities!

If they are boys, they will be our sundry debtors
If they are girls, they will be our sundry creditors

But if we have a boy and a girl,
Our balance sheet will tally automatically!

2011-03-29T10:49:00.003+08:00

why do i choose to bear the misery alone and let myself suffer? hmm. i guess i'm kinda used to it. or rather, i'm afraid of every decision i made. if i choose to tell her, what will happened? what will she think of me? so all the while, i choose to ren and let it be. thats something not relation to academics. anyways, nothing's been going through my mind. its just confused confused, and getting worse each day. machaim a zombie walking aimlessly on the road, cross or not cross? got a feedback from a tutor, and her comments just hurts. its that the reality i have to face? someone, pls hold my hand, and guide me to the next stop.

2011-03-25T09:19:00.005+08:00

results released. its far from my expectation. i didnt achieve the grades i wanted. neither do i have the gpa as well.

i all along have some confidence that i will do a little well, and pull up my gpa at least 0.1.... cause i find the exam papers manageable except for some careless mistakes i've made.

now bubble dream burst. none of wishes came true. its either i'm really stupid not gifted in studying OR i didn't put in my best effort at all.

thinking of my next step now.. but i realised i'm landing nowhere. no local uni anymore. sorry daddy mommy, think i've let you guys down. yours hopes pin on me is crushed right to the bottom.

its the first time i got my results and i cried. not joy of tears, but tears of disappointment and sorrow.

i think i will be away for a couple of days. not the right state of mind currently.

-often in life we forget the thing we ought to remember, and remember the things we should forget. how ironic.

2011-03-19T18:16:00.004+08:00

omg i love this pair of eyes! [in this photo only] sparkling! HEEE.

yepp, you're right. i chopped off 2 inches of my hair.and its now so much lighter! but i miss my close-to-waist length hairrrr :( need another few years to grow again.

sorry was in my pyjamas.

oh and of course - happie birthday qihui (:

2011-03-18T21:59:00.002+08:00

indeed just like what the picture says. today started off with a horrible incident. i couldn't find the charles and keith card that i borrowed from mommy. and you know, as all mothers go the same way, she made a mountain out of a molehill. was frigging stressed up and in a foul my mood.

angrily i gave up finding for it in my room, and left out of the house. [as i was running late for serene's investing seminar] on the bus and train rides, my mind was totally on the stupid heartless card. i remember clearly that hui return me last wk! and i was pretty sure that i put it into my wallet.... but where the hell it gone to?! think think think.... tried all methods :/

then when i was on the shuttle bus itself, i phoned home. wanted to say in a very nice tone by asking mom to check on her side. [you know! somethings she's forgetful too -.-] however, i was welcome back with a hell lot of shoutings. "why would i trick you! i say dun have means dont have! you think i very free is it!"

i merely ask. and i got such a reply. how not to be angry! so i was freaking fed up, clicked the red hanged up button and there it goes - SILENCE. i never hang up on people's call unless its already my peak. as the bus journey goes, tears began to fall... i cried not because i lost the card, but rather the tone and attitude she gave me. still, i tried to hold back my tears afterall its a public place! LOL.

anyways the ending was, mom phoned me couple of hours later, telling me she found the card. its underneath this ear piece set that i bought for hui in IT show... stupid or wad. and found card, of course she happy lahs. attitude and mood change 180 degrees. yes that's my mom.

luckily my mood got better after i went for the hair appointment (: chopped off my hair 2 inches! and now its pretty short. in the past, i merely trimmed my hair. this time, tried a fresh look! and i'm back to bangs plus a silker touch with the treatment i did! got rather irritated with the side fringe.

oh! and serene gave me a graduation gift! thanks dear! :D its a little beanie by the name tudou! and it has got a sewn on-tag that belongs to ME! yes only me! no snatching :P girl, i know you will be reading this - yeap! we shall work hard together and of course i promised to be a stronger girl from now on kay. *hook fingers*

i see no answer hence. i guess i'll my own assumptions then?

2011-03-18T01:55:00.002+08:00

omggg. i'm getting paranoid once again.

one by one i gotta know people received calls from ntu for interview. BUT WHY NO ME :(

is it i keyed in the wrong phone number?

i forgot to submit some documents?

people are much better than me?

their results are better than mine?

my application didnt get through?

they dislike me?!

OMG WTH IS WRONG.

okay sorry i'm just really paranoid for such issues. i really hate such application thingy. i mean every single one of us work so hard since kindergarten just to reach the final lap - university. so if we didn't receive any admission, we ought to be devastated and all! i mean all the small little efforts do reap results isn't it? then how about mine?

argh. i guess i just need to chill a little.

should i get those glow in the dark deco to stick on my walls?

did i say recently every night, there's a little white kitten sleeping in front of my doorstep? being bored, i'll kinda talk to it.. and now it appears almost every single night! perhaps its time we should keep a pet?

mad chiooo.

2011-03-17T16:35:00.002+08:00

went for the first interview in my life. you know for an official job.

anyways its kinda a failure :/

i'm looking forward to salon appointment and of course meeting my dear serene tomorrow! :D like finally get to see her since cny. yeap thats how long it is :(

i should cut down the times i spent in starbucks/coffee bean/similar cafes drinking coffee -.-" seriously bad. could have save the money to shop more! HEE.

no reply seen hmmm, i should get used to it.

aneza's flying off tomorrow to northern europe! so happy for her cause i can worry lesser now.phew. [her original plan was to japan ok!] and now she gets to go to the stirling castle where she might have a chance to meet her prince HA. she promised to bring one back for me if there's an extra :) looking forward to catch up with her. bon voyage dear!

even minnie loves starbucks, what can i say?

looking at this, i realised i haven wear my cny pumps! *random*

to japan: keep calm and carry on with your life cause we're all there for you.

2011-03-16T01:17:00.001+08:00

feel so much better after writing my thoughts on tumblr.

i wonder:

did you still have that card with you?

2011-03-15T14:58:00.002+08:00

i miss life in campus. i miss my girlfriends.

but all the more i miss the real you.

been shopping alone these days till i'm kinda used to such life. girlfriends busy with school, poly friends all busy with their very own stuff. and perhaps we got different interest? stay at home is not much of a solution for me to kill time...

its alright. its okay. alone is nothing bad? you know life like this is hard to get. my routine has been: going in and out of shops on a shopping sprees, legs tired head to starbucks for a cup of coffee, read some magazines while looking through the window panes staring at the busy lot of singaporeans... finish resting continue second round of shoppings. when its about time, head off home for dinner or have some quick bites along the way..

this friday i'm gonna pamper my hair in the salon with hui :)

soon i shall get used to such life. afterall, i'm always alone. people all have their own life to get by, their own interests, relationship, family, clique of friends, etc. its hard to find that someone to accompany you every single day when you need him/her. hence, its indeed impt for me to get used to this life.

a sudden craving for ice creamm!

i remember i used to hang like this with mich.

saving up to buy this for mommy on mother's day (her fav brand of perf)

2011-03-13T14:37:00.002+08:00

my legs been pretty tired these days with all the walking and stuff in HEELS. my gawd. went for the open house @ ntu.. and got to tour in the halls! its pretty. i mean for the newly built ones. hard to say for those older halls. but i'm still persistent of stay in hall if i ever get admitted into ntu. i mean its a rare chance isnt it? okayy at least that how i think for now. [of course it'll be better if my rommy is my friend]

sidetrack abit. so this wk topic is definitely on the saddening earthquake in japan? seriously was watching this documentary the videos of these people running for their lives, worrying about their families, parents protecting their children, etc :(

sometimes i really wonder, why is there plate movements under the earth crust which cause earthquakes? why does the tsunami has the heart to kill so many people and destroy so many homes? does he know that it takes years for someone to built a home but just few seconds to destroy it! even the last tsunami banda aceh ppl are still building their home up till now (even 5 years have passed) yes, people do study geography, scientist study all the earth sciences, how does the movement happened, what destruction will it cause, how to lessen the destruction cause... but do you know WE CAN NEVER PREVENT IT. its something it will always happen, yet we just couldn't do anything :/

was chatting with my parents about it yesterday. mommy said perhaps we humans did many stuffs that shouldn't be done.. all these are the punishments we are facing together as a citizen on earth. we share all this burden and joy together... but stilll... i really hope someone could press the stop button to all these natural hazards.

pls people, do keep japan in your prayers. no one deserve to experience these natural disasters. it isn't any of their's fault to born in japan which falls on the fault line of the earth plates...

they say next saturday will be another round of disaster occurring due to the closeness of the moon and earth.. [*cross fingers*] pls no.

if time will stand still.

i kinda like the bangle hee.

2011-03-09T16:35:00.002+08:00

booked my ftt on april 14 :)

humans are weird isn't it, when we're schooling, we complain about the hectic projects and assignments we've got. when we work, we complain about how boring work is and the stress from client. when we're enjoying holiday, we complain about the boredom our life is every single day...

when will we really enjoy the company of one another and the things we do together?

as usual, tumblrs time!

i wish i have a room like this next time! just to store the apparels and accessories!

house by the beach looks not-a-bad idea.

i'm thinking of you right now, did you?

girlfriends! lets do this next time yeah (:

purplish's the love.

life's like a roller coaster ride. ups and downs.

but one thing for sure, i have the best cliques of boyfriends and girlfriends of all time (:

2011-03-08T22:56:00.002+08:00

the panda inside is uber cuteee.. if someone cheer you up like this, i bet every girl will smile sweetly :D

-imagining in progress-

ok slap slap! time to wake up from your dream.

time will tell everything.

2011-03-08T14:59:00.002+08:00

received calls from recruit express but i couldn't pick up cause was sleeping. there goes my job :/

anyways, been loving the days these days, lunching with girlfriends, shopping alone, hi-tea with mommy and stuffs like this. its great. carefree and relaxing.

look how cute these cupcakes holders are!

i wish my bed in the future will be like this :D

purple ftw!

NEED!

i'll be happy every meal with these glasswares :D

2011-03-07T14:56:00.002+08:00

a weekend getaway always feels great, no matter how near the country is.. what it matters, is the loved ones that you're going with (:

and this time its daddy's retreat to malacca - 3 hour plus coach journey. i merely tag along and hang out with daddy's buddy and his family. so glad to know that auntie and i can really be shopping mates HAHA. i like the way how close i can choose to be with someone much older than me..

in the past, i simply respected auntie for who she is in the past, someone whom i wont take the initiative to gossip and talk to, but just exchanging few sentences here and there. [despite the fact that both my parents are very close to them with the common interests - karaoke]

guess a trip can really bring two families much closer together? now, auntie and i will hook hands and go shopping spree together hahaha. [she even ask my dad can take me in as her god-daughter not, joke]

its uber cute when you see how uncle stop my dad from eating ice cream. thats what close buddies will do isn't it, taking care of one another sharing your joy and sorrows.

sometimes, its really heartwarming to know that you got true friends around you. ^^

thank you daddy for bringing me along :)

i didnt made it to the top, but at least i tried!

i really love this photo. its like a tumblr-piece of work. HAHA.

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many of you might not know, but my dad's family is rather complicated. all the brothers couldn't get along with one another because of one thing - ah gong's favouritism. because of that, all these years, we been only close and communicating with second uncle's family. as for fourth and youngest uncle family, we merely enter their house just to visit ah gong. other than that, we didnt even talk. of course, leading to that, i barely even know their children (aka my cousins) names. so why do i even bring this up?

cause as heard from my sis (second uncle's daughter) she told me fourth uncle's daughter got married yesterday. yepp that's it, they didnt even invite my family despite us being carrying the same blood. second uncle and his wife went, they left immediately after that cause they couldnt tolerate their behaviour. they didnt even address them being their elder brother and stuff and even throw a black face as if they owe them $$ :/ yeah all along, they been behaving like this. the two uncles has never shown any respect to second uncle and my dad as elder brothers. they came into our house as if its THEIR house, and sat down lie down on sofa, etc. all these lies down to the fact that my ah gong show favouritism to two of them. he love them alot, and guess what they do to him now?

fourth uncle didnt even bring ah gong to the wedding to give him a chance to witness his own grand-daughter's wedding (given that ah gong dote on both their daughters the most). besides that, the daughter didnt even serve tea to ah gong during the tea ceremony! only serve to the parents and other uncles aunties. look how 'filial' they are. can you imagine how hurt ah gong must have felt given that he always dote on them the most. that's it, the ending result of you showing favouritism in this family. not that i blame ah gong for such things, but seriously, haven't you got the eyes to see who really cares for you and stuff. why is your heart forever with them. why hadn't you love me once like how you love them.

all in all, i just hated the fact that they nvr even respect ah gong in the first place and ah gong still continues to do so much for them... why? i can never really understand this.

anyway, exam's are OVER. and i'm unofficially a graduate of ngee ann (:

2011-02-25T22:15:00.003+08:00

today's my first paper!!!! and not forgetting its indeed a first time for everything: [info overload ahead]

-first hand experience of daddy's car "exploded" due to major oil leaked, smoke coming out from 2 sides of the car, the front lid flip opened, causing the a jam @ the u-turn area oppo my school just 30min before my exam.

- first time crossing the road at such a junction! where cars are just oncoming everywhere from all directions.

- first time hopping onto russell's car! thanks for the ride boy! kind of save me from the frantic and walking up the "hill" to school. ♥

- first time had such an eventful morning!

but all these first times taught me alot. i admit i was damm panic and shocked stunned when everything happened. was glad that daddy remained calm to handle everything. wanted to stay there with him cause kinda worry :/ but exams gonna start at the same time. i was forced to make a decision - in fact i really have to go. so yupp kinda ditched him there.. and he's the MAN haha that really stop the cars just so that i can alight safely from my seat and cross the road. its terrifying, but i know he's there for me (:

what touches my heart was daddy phoned me 15min later and again after my exam just to ensure i arrived safely in school and everything's alright at my side. he's so cute that he keep asking me did the event in the morning scared me. he apologised though. but still... of course it did!!!!! omg. still cannot help but traumatised by it.

and that leads to my parents arguing about changing to a new car -.-" i vote for a change!!!!! srsly. but you guys gotta know being brought up in a accountant background family is not easy. cause everything they think about that from an accountant's perspective! BOO. as the car still has 2 years depreciation left, daddy wanna make fully use of it zzz. but harlo, you gotta think the extra expenses you fork out to maintain it! perhaps i should prepare a cost budget HAHA.

on a side note, i got a new folder in my lappy and phone: TUMBLRS LOVES! here's the collection for today!

I WANNA HAVE A SHOE RACK LIKE THIS.

i like the ribbbon shorts ^^

awww. me wanna the purple elmo!

it means I LOVE YOU in french (:

dreams... out there.. far away, but i know i'll reach it one day.

grab one!!!!

ok back to studying for my second paper - AUDIT ewwww. *pui*

2011-02-23T13:11:00.002+08:00

i am sick again :( 2 days to exams. and fever, flu and cough's all back. wtheck.

[yesterday was just a roller coaster ride for me]

nonetheless, i'll still mug hard for the time being. tumblr's such a sweetie pie. never fails to cheer me up with adorable interesting prettaye photos :)

thats the mugger me now !

2011-02-21T22:40:00.003+08:00

i'm been finding the right colours in my black& white life these days :/

people are not at their usual form recently. weird temper along with weird attitudes. is it them or i'm drifting away from them? couldn't understand them anymore.

different thinking and mindset. why?

2011-02-20T20:30:00.001+08:00

charcoal peel off mask!

my face is sparkling clean now!!! the effect is good remove all the impurities like blackheads and all. but but peel off mask can be quite painful leh cause it kinda stick onto hair :/ shall search for mask sheet next time!

even my mom is kind of into mask these days, thanks to my influence.

2011-02-20T01:32:00.002+08:00

why is it that always during such period i will cry?

i hate you i hate you! why cant the same meaning of your words said out in another form? the volume, the tone, the way you speak. what's wrong with discussing with my friend regarding university application! yes you were teaching me halfway.. i interrupted the process. but its important.

but the sentence of yours "you talk so much for wad! if you cant even do accurately now, you also wont be able to enter uni !"

indeed. i know deep in your heart. you have already deemed me not being able to enter university just like you did. i know i've already disgrace you entering poly. you still cant get over the fact that i went poly and not jc right?

its fcuking 3 years! haven't you got over it? why is it everytime when you coach me the correct method, i will end up crying much more than absorbing your teachings.

and what's worse is not crying, but to sob in my heart, and hold back my tears. just because i want to put up a brave front in front of you.

i can only tear under the blanket.

2011-02-19T19:28:00.002+08:00

when i'm angry, do not even attempt to explain further. cause none of them will be accepted or enter into my brain.

nobody in my life has talked to me in that tone before, not my daddy, mommy, grandparents, relatives nor even my girlfriends. and i didn't expect the first to be you.and you can rest assured that the things that you said wont happen again. cause i wont bother you. yes doesn't mind doesn't equates to you like it. but if it's gonna be so calculative, looking at my life, it always happens too! so does that mean i have to count every single shit my friends said to me, and thereafter tell them off one by one?

NO. i didnt. and i know i wont. if i did, i think i wont have any friends by now. i did nothing wrong. i don't owe anyone an apology.

i seriously need to chill a little to get on further in my revision.

2011-02-19T15:51:00.002+08:00

shiaks. i'm in love with such curls once again. should i or should i not?

sometimes i'm just so sick of all these relationship issues among my friends. why must you guys just take it out on me? whatever it is, just don't get me drag into your couple life? perhaps i'm over-reacting. but at that moment, that's just how i felt.

is it true that couples in a honeymoon relationship has really no eyes for the others? apparently i guess so.

its indeed a relief that i'm enjoying singlehood to the very maximum now. i may have my own problems but i do not have to answer to anyone. my decisions and actions are final, and that's what it matters.

off to study. exams in just 6 days. ohmygosh.

2011-02-14T23:23:00.002+08:00

MY 2011 VALENTINES

how did you spent yours? with your love ones? flowers? splendid dinner? well, i caught this damm funny yet teary at some parts movie @ nex (:

he's damm considerate. a cd just for her menses cramps. LOL.

they say "bestfriends last longer than boyfriends. they are the ones that will never breakup with you" indeed. that's why i love you guys so much! despite that, having a prince always there for you is still necessary HA!

i've spent quite a number of valentines day with my girlfriends, and i had to admit that sometimes even the usual outings are valentine's to me.

this year, for valentine's i only have one wish: give thanks to all of them.

singles: to find their other half soon! - for my other half, wait for me! i know you're still searching for me tooo!!!!! HAHA.

attached: last long ((:

2011-02-14T00:58:00.001+08:00

yepp went to support mommy for her performance. she did me proud :D LOVE!

headed for lunchie or rather high tea after that with parents and huiling. then off we go to plaza sing, uncle ringo and then searching for gifts!

thanks girl for supporting ^^v

2011-02-11T15:35:00.002+08:00

i'm catching chingay LIVE later :D

pray for good weather - good is defined as sunny yet windy.but coming to think about it. according to hl i kinda a weirdo that doesn't sweat HA.

2011-02-10T01:42:00.001+08:00

all my projects and individual reports are down.

2 more weeks to the start of exams.

3 more weeks to the start of holidays.

and soon, it will be my graduation ceremony :)

2011-02-03T23:42:00.001+08:00

HAPPIE NEW YEAR (:

on a side note:

loving it now!

2011-01-29T23:14:00.001+08:00

yepp! u guessed it? i had my virgin dye on my longgggg hair :D

its pretty naise! kinda like it alotttt. dark red with a shade of brown? so awesome.

sadly not very obvious under room light, but when its under the sunlight MUHAHA. its like wow! what happened to your hair? HAPPIE GIRL!

2011-01-23T17:28:00.000+08:00

*hugs*

i found 48 sets of pyjamas while clearing my wardrobe . MY GAWD.

doom for tomorrow jap exam :(

2011-01-21T23:03:00.004+08:00

was browsing through tiffany & co.. and thinking of my 21st birthday gift. [my mom was asking me about it]

the perfect gift for proposal!

or valentines?

mommy, when i got my first decent stable salary, i'll get you this pure gold for you (:

for now, make do with chomel. haha!

2011-01-17T23:54:00.000+08:00

was watching youtube videos and i was unknowingly clicking repeat again and again on this:

you love it too, dont you?

2011-01-16T15:55:00.001+08:00

was on my way home from school when this song played on my ipod. i didnt even know i has such a song inside LOL. [cause half of my songs were frm hui's ipoddy]

NAISE :D

2011-01-16T00:25:00.000+08:00

When a girl falls asleep texting you, it doesn't mean you bore her.

It just means she didn't want to end the conversation.

2011-01-15T22:49:00.001+08:00

with the cny deco's hanging up.. vday's gonna come too!!!

omg aren't they cute couple apparels?! its no longer a traditional couple tee yo! I SO LOVE the girl's version!!!!

too bad i've got no boyfriend :/

2011-01-15T21:21:00.002+08:00

HAPPIE BIG TWENTY WILSON (:

wishing every single one of them in the clique will take their individual effort to stay together with one another.

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on a side note, yesterday just wasn't at my best mood. i have so much things to say, yet i couldn't tell anyone.

except to pen it down somewhere.

2011-01-10T23:08:00.001+08:00

it would definitely be: SPREAD THE LOVE OF TEDDY BEARS as they are a symbol of care, love, concern and establishing close mutual relationship (:

2011-01-10T01:14:00.000+08:00

i'm sad to say i dont have a nice day nor a nice ass nor a nice attitude.

will you still friend me?

2011-01-09T13:52:00.001+08:00

i wanna have this little swing in my garden next time (:
i really love such swings.

imma happie little girl yesterday [minus off the boredom, restrictions and stepping onto dog poo]

2011-01-09T00:54:00.003+08:00

pissed over certain things these days. i'm angry over what people say about him because i believe everyone has his very own strengths and weaknesses.

though things weren't the same as before, my feelings are there. its still so real. i could only continue to do something for him by ... 'protecting' him (:

2011-01-07T01:04:00.000+08:00

credits: tangem.com.sg

who owe me xmas present? can someone get me this? :(