yeah man! i did my first own french manicure :) nice not nice not?? i feel that its so prettyyy!

pink + white tip = <3

simple yet sweety. will blog soon abt the sentosa cum bowling and finding for best crispy prata-but was closed outing :D

i know sometimes i like to throw tantrums at my parents and force them to accept my mindset and ideology... but one thing i'm very privilleged with is the princess treatment i never fails to have since i'm born.

ever since i'm born, i'm like a little princess at home, 要风得风，要雨得雨 that kind of lifestyle. was spoilt max by granny where she will dote me and buy me anything i want to. even dinner and lunch at home she would specially just cook a set of different dishes for me (cause i requested to in the morning).. and many many little actions. because durian is heaty, hence parents doesn't like me to eat them, yet ah gong will go buy durians with the prickly shells and we'll open them up one by one when parents headed to work HEHE. these were the little secrets we shared. it all seems just so yesterday.... :/

mommy tend to spoil me with all the materialistic and realistic stuffs like stuffed toys, clothes, jewellery, gadgets, food, etc. many many~ her logic was "her daddy spoil her since she young, so she love that kind of feeling, she will therefore wants me to have a happy childhood too. on a side note, sometimes is she herself want to play with those toys lor -.-"

daddy wise .. hmms. his kind of actions is not spoiling me.. but rather dote on me. he knows every early heading to school is a tiring chore, so he will tend to think of a route whereby he can drop me off somewhere for a direct bus or simply fetch me to school directly. if he's on an overseas trip, he nvr fails to buy my favourite stuffs back for me and mommy (no biasness haha) even if its stuffed toy, he will get 2 big identical ones so that we will not quarrel over it LOL, and call home every single night just talking for hours (despite the charges) ..

why am i saying all this! cause..................daddy is fetching me to school tomorrow even though my school is in CBD and has to pay 2 ERPS! :D love you!!!!! (though i would still hope you can spend more time with me)

this is what i call princess treatment!!

that kind of sums up my two rest days at home without school! HEHE.

school's bad without friends. yet somehow i love the feeling of being a student again. feels so much younger.. studying, mugging for tutorials, flipping notes and books - i like it!

on a brighter note, gonna have a spicy date tomorrow: happiness ♥.

sometimes i really envy parents who are always there for them, physically.... i know my parents will be there when i need them. but what i want is far more simpler than that...

a little wish of mine:

when i'm home, daddy and mommy are always already home. daddy could spend a little more time with me and this family. weekends will be reserved for me. even just a simple threesome dinner together... playing a little game of chess or surfing the net, etc with daddy. gossiping with mommy. sharing my idiot moments and sorrows with them.

the reality:

daddy is forever so busy since i'm young. he has a dedicated and played a crucial role in his occupation.. further more, he engaged himself in community services.... so can you imagine how many hours is left for me then? he has SOOOOOO MANY meeetings, dinners, events, cocktail sessions, ceremonies to attend every month... i miss the times i watched tv, dinner on the same table, chit chat in the cars with him... last time in poly, i still have the chance to catch up with him when he fetch me to and fro from school... but now, its hard! :/ i really admire his determination and hardwork in his occupation and his passion in serving the community.. but sometimes i just hope to be a little selfish and wants him for myself. why must i share with others my daddy's love? :(( i know he has his own interests. but how about my interest? who spare a thought for me?

i'm glad i still have mommy most of the time to gossip with. we'll spend our nights rolling on the bed together talking about everything in our lives.. (except some secrets of our own) .... play with stuffed toys together. supper with each other's company.. and eventually fell asleep with one another by our side. only when i'm really asleep, then mommy will leave my room :)

i hate the feeling when i'm home so late, and when i opened the door, its locked and no one's home yet. i will starting thinking what's daddy and mommy doing? i dislike the fact they went out together without me too. i hates to be deserted behind. i think i need their attention ALL the time HAHA.

i've already been left behind by granny... it hurts. i havent even recover from it, let alone getting used to it.

perhaps this is the sorrows of an only child :/ thats why sometimes i hate to get home so early. i love to hang out with girlfriends and friends. they make me feel good. even just stoning and rotting outside makes me feel alive.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BFF MICHELLE :)

its how amazing time really flies..... she's my closest and bestest (if there's such a word) friend when i was in primary school... infact she's like an inseparable soul of me LOL. when there's michelle, there's me too! we made phonecalls to each other everyday until her ah gong always scold her for talking on phone for hours.. we go each other house to play during holidays given the fact we live so nearby~ (walking distance) despite the countless arguments and cold wars we have, we somehow always just patch up with one another.. cause all the time we're getting angry over really trival matters..

during art classes, we would take turns to bring materials for one another so that each would have a lighter weightload... she would bring brushes for me and palettes. and i will definitely bring all the pastel colours and crayons i have. so sweet right haha. (ok its sweet for me) i remember clearly once we quarrelled over certain stuff again during recess... (i think i was angry over the fact she promise to play badminton with me that day, who knows she played with another friend of mine first) so i refused to talk to her and treated her transparent.... however in the noon, there's art class, so i dont have brushes with me obviously. and i'm a very headstrong person, i wont admit my wrong and give in to talk to her just to borrow brushes from her~ so i seated there while everyone in the class move on to their colourings. thats when she came over, pass me the brushes silently and walked off.... it was then that i felt guilty and ought to apologise for having such a childish behaviour earlier on... (still i refuse to say sorry LOL) so i merely sat with her and share with her my materials as usual.. and somehow with that, we patch up again ((:

everything's so well until we had to separate in pri 4 while changing of classes... her studies are always far better in mine, she's strong in math and science, while i'm strong in chinese... i guess i somesort got her maths influence ~~ thats when in upper primary, i pulled up my maths and science alot from failures to an A in PSLE...though we got kinda separate in pri 4, we got back together to the same class in pri 5 and 6 where we are allowed to choose our paths. and thats when we both promised to take up higher chinese tgt. (in the mindset to get into the same class) indeed she nvr fails to let ppl down, she did very well in psle (in fact the top in our class) and move on to prestigious secondary school...whereas for me, i just have to head over to my affiliated school. i was really happy for her then. we made a point to keep in contact till sec 1-2... and we kinda drifted away since then.. also with the fact that she moved to a further place in the midst of sec school ~

oh! it was in pri 5 that hl and jess came and join us :) soon, 4 of us are inseparable! hopscotch, always late for school, getting booked by prefects, eating fishcakes, drinking jellyjoy, running down frm our classroom to the linkway, getting caught for playing poker cards in school (this is quite big affair, given we have to write an apology letter to our parents and make them sign in), laughing at chicken-neh teachers, getting our zuo ye book thrown out of the classroom cause we didnt do corrections... these were the memories we four shared...

we still do meetups till sec 2 i think... cause we have no longer common topics to talk about.. we have no idea each others' likes and dislikes.. i could no longer understand her social circle.. but one thing for sure is we never fails to forget each other birthdays and numbers.. ♥

because of her, i've a very happy childhood days in primary school. from a little girl who's afraid of going to school in primary 1 to someone who has a group of supporting clique...and that includes her too :D these memories are so precious and valuable that i'm bound to share with my children next time (if i ever have one)...

if only one day our daughters could all meet in pl and play hopscotch together again.

life is full of ups and downs.. one moment you are way high up happily, one moment you are down all the way above hell a little...

celebration ended successfully despite the hiccups along the way. phew.

recently got influenced by serene my dear emo partner.. talking about it, i haven seen her for a long time! (ok just 1 wk) LOL. anyways, totally love to walk ard in the nighttime admiring the pretty sky scrapers in the midst of the busy city buzzing lights. walking alone feels great. good for the mind too. think alot alot alot.......

thanks bff ♥, serene, fangy, zhiyong, wilson, kx and russell for listening to my woes and giving me valuable advices. will keep those in mind. but now, let me emo a little longer and i will pick myself up again!

its hard not to care about someone. and when i say i don't care, i don't literally mean i don't care. i think i'm just foolish. knowing all the time i'm just an option in some ppl lives, i still place priority of them in my life. knowing the fact that i'm gonna get hurt again and again, i still place trust and concern for them. knowing that they're not worth my attention, i still fall in it deeply.

that's the stupid side of me :/

with the two girls starting school, life's alot alot alot dull & boring for me... oh wells, my school's starting soon anyway!!!

caught "something borrowed" yesterday! very much a 4/5 star-rated movie! kinda like the twist here and there... its more of a love comedy kind of film.

pretty female lead! - like her hair :)

oh-god-so-charming-eyes.

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i guess tonight i need some time alone just walking and roaming around~ it will be a good time for me to relax and breathe in some fresh air!

i have a whole lot of stuff wanna explode out. but i cant? feels terrible. i wanna talk some sense into her. but i cant too? i tried and failed.

did you had a good 七夕情人节?? i did! :D

though i do not have my the other half with me, i've the bestest friends on earth! to reward ourselves on this special day, i went for threading with fangy since school is gonna reopens soon, and we ought to look pretty pretty in school right :P

lunch with serene and off we go to changi airport for a tourist route !!! we spotted fang's distant relative and huiling's colleague and many many interesting events. oh~ on our way back to deliver our 爱心 popcorn to huiling, fang and i had a super hectic and challenging games just for idiots. HAHA. hi - idioooo ♥

a sum of our singapore-hongkong route:

the yummy food to fill our stomachs

爱死你们了！

2 of you starting school tomorrow, jiayou! and you'll survive the semester just like before :)