Sunday, July 31, 2011

was reading this essay, and really love how they truly describes it. thats the beauty of chinese :)


有些人不能在一起,可他们的心在一起;

有些人表面上在一起,心却无法在一起;

有些人从没想过要在一起,却自然而然地在一起;

有些人千辛万苦地终于在一起了,却发现他们并不适合在一起。

就算最后,我们没有在一起,至少爱,还是会在一起。

爱在一起,就在一起!


小时候,希望自己快点长大,长大了,却发现遗失了童年;单身时,开始羡慕恋人的甜蜜,恋爱时,怀念单身时的自由。很多事物,没有得到时总觉得美好,得到之后才开始明白:我们得到的同时也是在失去。


有时候,你等的不是事情,机会,或是谁,你等的是时间。等时间,让自己忘记,等时间,让自己改变,放弃便是得到


假如你想要一件东西,就放它走。它若能回来找你,就永远属于你;它若不回来,那根本就不是你的

当明天变成了今天成为了昨天,最后成为记忆里不再重要的某一天,我们突然发现自己在不知不觉中已被时间推着向前走,这不是静止火车里,与相邻列车交错时,仿佛自己在前进的错觉,而是我们真实的在成长,在这件事里成了另一个自己。

忘记一个人,并非不再想起,而是偶尔想起,心中却不再有波澜。真正的忘记,是不需要努力的。如果无法忘记他,就不要忘记好了,真正的忘记是不需要努力的。


this weekend most happening event will definitely be........ my first virgin volunteering @ osim triathlon :D

all thanks to this volunteer, had a mini emo heart to heart session with girlfriends and watched the first sunrise together in east coast :) its so pretty. and the sea breeze is just so COLD. brr. make our hands stands. but worth the wait.

its really been a long time since i last stepped into east coast. its a very special place with alot of memories i have. everytime i been there, it never fails to make me smile :)

yippie volunteer- thats me! [with a $20 allowance hee]

love you two toots :D

oldest with youngest neh neh :P


i love the osim shirt more than you :P [ok just kidding hehe]

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on a side note, i'm trying hard to get myself involved in meaningful events now. i'm always interested in social works volunteering.. in poly managed to engaged myself in leo club activities. hence now since i've no cca and projects in my new course.. i shall be determined and sourced for long term volunteering :) anyone got lobang tell me too! even my dad asked me whether i'm interested to join him in grassroots activities, but as the youth wing committee members.. guess with such things, it can shape my leadership skills too!

most importantly, seeing others happy makes my day!

just like many of u know, i hate kids to the core. but yesterday a very small incident simply makes me smile retardedly non stop. all because this little boy is urgent to pee, hence i let him go first... he came out telling me with his most innocent look a 4 yr old kid can look - "thank you jiejie" maybe because i dont have someone call me jiejie since young, i feel so so so happy at that very moment. i feel i did what an older sister has done. HAHA. omg. ok when its just such a SMALL tiny wheeny thingy. thickskinned. but oh wells, I'M REALLY HAPPY.

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

many things can just happened within few days.

so..... most of my girlfriends are starting school real soon. good for them, bad for me. cause i've lesser time spent with them :( thats sad really. but its ok! i know will always try to catch up with one another via sms/emails/fb/phonecalls~

everyone's just heading to different paths in their lives. ought to be happy for them, yet sometimes i cant help but feel a little upset. because of this fact, we've lesser time together, lesser common topics to chat about, lesser things in common, and most importantly things will definitely change. and such changes are things you can see with naked eyes.

telling yourself you're fine is the best solution. at least it helps to calm me down. this june and july's been the happiest month this year (so far) with girlies:

act ang-moh sotong fang ♥, serene my 超可爱好朋友 and blur-to-the-max ah hui.

as usuals, tumblrs photos makes me happy!

this reminds me of marble slab creamery icey cream! :D

a bed of roses.. sweettt... i prefer it to be purple!

my long lost friend!

need to get my piano fixed soon.

finding this colour for so longg :/



happie 3 friends. (i have mine too!)

Monday, July 25, 2011

the lyrics for this song is too beautiful.


收藏在眼眸常徘徊左右爱猜到没有 愉快玩笑后能全然退后你开心就够  这种感觉太亲厚讲一千句也不够 假使讲了你听到后或会走 这种恋爱太罕有不需真正拥有 成全衷心祝福然后就放手  放手放开所有彼此更自由 放手其实我绝非爱得不够 放手豁出所有还有这个好友 已经已经足够   遥远是宇宙静静在背后去看守就够  这种感觉太亲厚讲一千句也不够 即使一刹有过冲动挽你手 这种恋爱太罕有不需真正拥有 成全多舍不得仍然是放手  放手放开所有彼此更自由 放手其实我绝非爱得不够 放手豁出所有还有这个好友 已经已经足够  放手我的牵挂找不到尽头 放手期望你幸福甚麽都有 也许爱很深厚然而我早看得透 放手至可拥有

Saturday, July 23, 2011

i'm not a total christian nor a total buddhist.. hence i chose to believe in both.

like what i always do when i'm confused and needs a guidance, i'll flip through the bible or surf through the net. and today i've got this:

'There is no burden too great to bear when it's shared with me.'

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on a side note, I LEARNT VERTICAL PARKING TODAY! a step forward to get that license ^^
vamp diaries has really nice songs. songs that bring me to bed every night :)

1. Only one

2. Come back when you can

3. It is what it is



Thursday, July 21, 2011

its hurt to see how siblings got closer to one another, yet the cruel fact is i have none and will be lonely forever :/

oh wells. just grumbling cause have a sudden thought that i'am always closest to the maternal side of relatives. yet they were the ones that made me teared the most. cousins have always been my true blood siblings kind of relationship since i was young. i was their centre of attention, and they dote me most (probably because i'm the youngest among them)... but nonetheless, we as one whole group is that c-l-o-s-e.... we laughed, played around, sing karaoke, danced, gossips about each of our own parents, etc...

yet this fact changed the moment each and every single one of them start dating, got married and has their own family... i know i shouldn't be jealous of them. i know now their attention has all been adjusted to their own children and this is a process i must learn and adapt... yet i don't understand why the drastic change? why cant they still show that small glimpse of concern to me? even not that frequent meetups and all, must it be only during cny that we get to meet? partly i guess because of their children who 'stole' the attention of my cousins made me hate children that much. i don't understand why such little monsters can have the power to change someone.

indeed, my cousins who are real siblings themselves still keep in close contact with one another.. infact because of their own children, the pair of brother and sister got closer in relationship. then i began to wonder. have they forgotten my existence? have they forgotten the fact that their little sister here still yearns for their pat on the head? the hug from them? and the smirk and joke to make fun of? :/

perhaps this is what's the difference between real siblings and cousins. i can never replace any of them and be part of their family. i'm born to be a loner, that's the downside of being an only child.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011


世上真的有好多你不知道的事。 活在世上好难哦,好烦好烦。做一个不了解自己的人更难。

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

its the second time this year i have to experience the whole feeling again.. the fear of losing someone close to you..

i hate it when my mom calls and panicking and all. telling me not much of details just making a mountain out of the molehill. -.-

but oh wells. the feeling is over. sunshine is out once again.

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i guess after all these years and times of shocking news. i've immune myself to it and learn to hide and cover up all my fears and worries externally. last time if such things do happen, i'll text some ppl and need their assurance to calm myself down.. but as i grow up right now, i know it will just make another person worry for me and lose concentration in work/ studies.. hence i choose to keep it to myself.

and because of this, i have a very brave shield now.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

one of my aim to be a healthier girl this holiday - headed to my first water sports activity KAYAKING!





oh wells, as we four do not have a waterproof camera.. no pics was taken :/ could only grabbed photos from the web. oh sigh.

ITS OK! cause we had real fun ^^ i went into the water twice! that equates me to a happy girl! water's been always a phobia to me. not knowing how to swim was because of not wanting to let go the hand of instructor's or friends.... i wonder why.

but since i went into the water, i considered quite brave? :D

Saturday, July 09, 2011

headed to butter fact on wednesday~

it's a oh-so-good yet i don't wanna go there again kinda experience. though its a little that dangerous to go without any guy friends, still we survived :D and i swear i wont drink for one week. hurts man to drink frequently within a week. can simply died.

i'm sorta a little vampire zombie driving on the roadside today.

two sneakpeaks of myself before i stepped out to club:
happie face to part-teh with girlfriends after several months :)


say cheese!


and off i go :)