Thursday, March 31, 2011

tumblr's always been my other hideout. they have such nice peektures that tells exactly how i feel sometimes.


elope parter, spotted paris! let's go darling.

deep and sweet love.



speaks perfectly of me in my parents.

i love this wedding gown!


recently been visiting this doggie pet shop after lunch!they're so cute. has always wanted a puppy since young, but daddy disagree cause it requires alot of commitment. indeed, when i can't even commit myself in a relationship, what's more to say a puppy (a life).

haven found the right path to go. left or right? up or down?

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

In the journal paper of my heart,
I have written a journal entry.
Debiting your love and your affection.

Darling you write the narration,
Your first love, I had already adjusted
On the ledger-folio column,
Any way our relations are true assets

On double-entry system In addition,
our love is true real and tangible
You debit-what comes in,
I credit-what goes out.

Your beauty is the capital of business.
My eyes are stock in trade.
Let us enter into transaction,
You secretly give me a trade discount,
I openly give you a cash discount
And thus my partner, Our trading and
profit-loss account will show super profit

My dear let us reconcile,
all our errors and total the
trial balance of our affairs
arithmetically without maintaining
any suspense account.

In the balance sheet of our
life Our children will be our
true assets and liabilities!

If they are boys, they will be our sundry debtors
If they are girls, they will be our sundry creditors

But if we have a boy and a girl,
Our balance sheet will tally automatically!

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

why do i choose to bear the misery alone and let myself suffer? hmm. i guess i'm kinda used to it. or rather, i'm afraid of every decision i made. if i choose to tell her, what will happened? what will she think of me? so all the while, i choose to ren and let it be. thats something not relation to academics. anyways, nothing's been going through my mind. its just confused confused, and getting worse each day. machaim a zombie walking aimlessly on the road, cross or not cross? got a feedback from a tutor, and her comments just hurts. its that the reality i have to face? someone, pls hold my hand, and guide me to the next stop.

Friday, March 25, 2011

results released. its far from my expectation. i didnt achieve the grades i wanted. neither do i have the gpa as well.

i all along have some confidence that i will do a little well, and pull up my gpa at least 0.1.... cause i find the exam papers manageable except for some careless mistakes i've made.

now bubble dream burst. none of wishes came true. its either i'm really stupid not gifted in studying OR i didn't put in my best effort at all.

thinking of my next step now.. but i realised i'm landing nowhere. no local uni anymore. sorry daddy mommy, think i've let you guys down. yours hopes pin on me is crushed right to the bottom.

its the first time i got my results and i cried. not joy of tears, but tears of disappointment and sorrow.

i think i will be away for a couple of days. not the right state of mind currently.

-often in life we forget the thing we ought to remember, and remember the things we should forget. how ironic.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

omg i love this pair of eyes! [in this photo only] sparkling! HEEE.



yepp, you're right. i chopped off 2 inches of my hair.and its now so much lighter! but i miss my close-to-waist length hairrrr :( need another few years to grow again.

sorry was in my pyjamas.

oh and of course - happie birthday qihui (:

Friday, March 18, 2011


indeed just like what the picture says. today started off with a horrible incident. i couldn't find the charles and keith card that i borrowed from mommy. and you know, as all mothers go the same way, she made a mountain out of a molehill. was frigging stressed up and in a foul my mood.

angrily i gave up finding for it in my room, and left out of the house. [as i was running late for serene's investing seminar] on the bus and train rides, my mind was totally on the stupid heartless card. i remember clearly that hui return me last wk! and i was pretty sure that i put it into my wallet.... but where the hell it gone to?! think think think.... tried all methods :/

then when i was on the shuttle bus itself, i phoned home. wanted to say in a very nice tone by asking mom to check on her side. [you know! somethings she's forgetful too -.-] however, i was welcome back with a hell lot of shoutings. "why would i trick you! i say dun have means dont have! you think i very free is it!"

i merely ask. and i got such a reply. how not to be angry! so i was freaking fed up, clicked the red hanged up button and there it goes - SILENCE. i never hang up on people's call unless its already my peak. as the bus journey goes, tears began to fall... i cried not because i lost the card, but rather the tone and attitude she gave me. still, i tried to hold back my tears afterall its a public place! LOL.

anyways the ending was, mom phoned me couple of hours later, telling me she found the card. its underneath this ear piece set that i bought for hui in IT show... stupid or wad. and found card, of course she happy lahs. attitude and mood change 180 degrees. yes that's my mom.

luckily my mood got better after i went for the hair appointment (: chopped off my hair 2 inches! and now its pretty short. in the past, i merely trimmed my hair. this time, tried a fresh look! and i'm back to bangs plus a silker touch with the treatment i did! got rather irritated with the side fringe.

oh! and serene gave me a graduation gift! thanks dear! :D its a little beanie by the name tudou! and it has got a sewn on-tag that belongs to ME! yes only me! no snatching :P girl, i know you will be reading this - yeap! we shall work hard together and of course i promised to be a stronger girl from now on kay. *hook fingers*

i see no answer hence. i guess i'll my own assumptions then?

omggg. i'm getting paranoid once again.

one by one i gotta know people received calls from ntu for interview. BUT WHY NO ME :(

is it i keyed in the wrong phone number?
i forgot to submit some documents?
people are much better than me?
their results are better than mine?
my application didnt get through?
they dislike me?!

OMG WTH IS WRONG.

okay sorry i'm just really paranoid for such issues. i really hate such application thingy. i mean every single one of us work so hard since kindergarten just to reach the final lap - university. so if we didn't receive any admission, we ought to be devastated and all! i mean all the small little efforts do reap results isn't it? then how about mine?

argh. i guess i just need to chill a little.


should i get those glow in the dark deco to stick on my walls?

did i say recently every night, there's a little white kitten sleeping in front of my doorstep? being bored, i'll kinda talk to it.. and now it appears almost every single night! perhaps its time we should keep a pet?



mad chiooo.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

went for the first interview in my life. you know for an official job.

anyways its kinda a failure :/

i'm looking forward to salon appointment and of course meeting my dear serene tomorrow! :D like finally get to see her since cny. yeap thats how long it is :(

i should cut down the times i spent in starbucks/coffee bean/similar cafes drinking coffee -.-" seriously bad. could have save the money to shop more! HEE.

no reply seen hmmm, i should get used to it.

aneza's flying off tomorrow to northern europe! so happy for her cause i can worry lesser now.phew. [her original plan was to japan ok!] and now she gets to go to the stirling castle where she might have a chance to meet her prince HA. she promised to bring one back for me if there's an extra :) looking forward to catch up with her. bon voyage dear!

even minnie loves starbucks, what can i say?


looking at this, i realised i haven wear my cny pumps! *random*


to japan: keep calm and carry on with your life cause we're all there for you.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

feel so much better after writing my thoughts on tumblr.

i wonder:

did you still have that card with you?

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

i miss life in campus. i miss my girlfriends.

but all the more i miss the real you.

been shopping alone these days till i'm kinda used to such life. girlfriends busy with school, poly friends all busy with their very own stuff. and perhaps we got different interest? stay at home is not much of a solution for me to kill time...

its alright. its okay. alone is nothing bad? you know life like this is hard to get. my routine has been: going in and out of shops on a shopping sprees, legs tired head to starbucks for a cup of coffee, read some magazines while looking through the window panes staring at the busy lot of singaporeans... finish resting continue second round of shoppings. when its about time, head off home for dinner or have some quick bites along the way..

this friday i'm gonna pamper my hair in the salon with hui :)

soon i shall get used to such life. afterall, i'm always alone. people all have their own life to get by, their own interests, relationship, family, clique of friends, etc. its hard to find that someone to accompany you every single day when you need him/her. hence, its indeed impt for me to get used to this life.


a sudden craving for ice creamm!


i remember i used to hang like this with mich.


saving up to buy this for mommy on mother's day (her fav brand of perf)

Sunday, March 13, 2011

my legs been pretty tired these days with all the walking and stuff in HEELS. my gawd. went for the open house @ ntu.. and got to tour in the halls! its pretty. i mean for the newly built ones. hard to say for those older halls. but i'm still persistent of stay in hall if i ever get admitted into ntu. i mean its a rare chance isnt it? okayy at least that how i think for now. [of course it'll be better if my rommy is my friend]

sidetrack abit. so this wk topic is definitely on the saddening earthquake in japan? seriously was watching this documentary the videos of these people running for their lives, worrying about their families, parents protecting their children, etc :(

sometimes i really wonder, why is there plate movements under the earth crust which cause earthquakes? why does the tsunami has the heart to kill so many people and destroy so many homes? does he know that it takes years for someone to built a home but just few seconds to destroy it! even the last tsunami banda aceh ppl are still building their home up till now (even 5 years have passed) yes, people do study geography, scientist study all the earth sciences, how does the movement happened, what destruction will it cause, how to lessen the destruction cause... but do you know WE CAN NEVER PREVENT IT. its something it will always happen, yet we just couldn't do anything :/

was chatting with my parents about it yesterday. mommy said perhaps we humans did many stuffs that shouldn't be done.. all these are the punishments we are facing together as a citizen on earth. we share all this burden and joy together... but stilll... i really hope someone could press the stop button to all these natural hazards.

pls people, do keep japan in your prayers. no one deserve to experience these natural disasters. it isn't any of their's fault to born in japan which falls on the fault line of the earth plates...

they say next saturday will be another round of disaster occurring due to the closeness of the moon and earth.. [*cross fingers*] pls no.

if time will stand still.


i kinda like the bangle hee.






Wednesday, March 09, 2011

booked my ftt on april 14 :)

humans are weird isn't it, when we're schooling, we complain about the hectic projects and assignments we've got. when we work, we complain about how boring work is and the stress from client. when we're enjoying holiday, we complain about the boredom our life is every single day...

when will we really enjoy the company of one another and the things we do together?

as usual, tumblrs time!

i wish i have a room like this next time! just to store the apparels and accessories!

house by the beach looks not-a-bad idea.

i'm thinking of you right now, did you?

girlfriends! lets do this next time yeah (:

purplish's the love.



life's like a roller coaster ride. ups and downs.

but one thing for sure, i have the best cliques of boyfriends and girlfriends of all time (:

Tuesday, March 08, 2011


the panda inside is uber cuteee.. if someone cheer you up like this, i bet every girl will smile sweetly :D

-imagining in progress-

ok slap slap! time to wake up from your dream.

time will tell everything.
received calls from recruit express but i couldn't pick up cause was sleeping. there goes my job :/

anyways, been loving the days these days, lunching with girlfriends, shopping alone, hi-tea with mommy and stuffs like this. its great. carefree and relaxing.

look how cute these cupcakes holders are!


i wish my bed in the future will be like this :D

purple ftw!


NEED!



i'll be happy every meal with these glasswares :D

Monday, March 07, 2011

a weekend getaway always feels great, no matter how near the country is.. what it matters, is the loved ones that you're going with (:

and this time its daddy's retreat to malacca - 3 hour plus coach journey. i merely tag along and hang out with daddy's buddy and his family. so glad to know that auntie and i can really be shopping mates HAHA. i like the way how close i can choose to be with someone much older than me..

in the past, i simply respected auntie for who she is in the past, someone whom i wont take the initiative to gossip and talk to, but just exchanging few sentences here and there. [despite the fact that both my parents are very close to them with the common interests - karaoke]

guess a trip can really bring two families much closer together? now, auntie and i will hook hands and go shopping spree together hahaha. [she even ask my dad can take me in as her god-daughter not, joke]

its uber cute when you see how uncle stop my dad from eating ice cream. thats what close buddies will do isn't it, taking care of one another sharing your joy and sorrows.

sometimes, its really heartwarming to know that you got true friends around you. ^^

thank you daddy for bringing me along :)
i didnt made it to the top, but at least i tried!

i really love this photo. its like a tumblr-piece of work. HAHA.

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many of you might not know, but my dad's family is rather complicated. all the brothers couldn't get along with one another because of one thing - ah gong's favouritism. because of that, all these years, we been only close and communicating with second uncle's family. as for fourth and youngest uncle family, we merely enter their house just to visit ah gong. other than that, we didnt even talk. of course, leading to that, i barely even know their children (aka my cousins) names. so why do i even bring this up?

cause as heard from my sis (second uncle's daughter) she told me fourth uncle's daughter got married yesterday. yepp that's it, they didnt even invite my family despite us being carrying the same blood. second uncle and his wife went, they left immediately after that cause they couldnt tolerate their behaviour. they didnt even address them being their elder brother and stuff and even throw a black face as if they owe them $$ :/ yeah all along, they been behaving like this. the two uncles has never shown any respect to second uncle and my dad as elder brothers. they came into our house as if its THEIR house, and sat down lie down on sofa, etc. all these lies down to the fact that my ah gong show favouritism to two of them. he love them alot, and guess what they do to him now?

fourth uncle didnt even bring ah gong to the wedding to give him a chance to witness his own grand-daughter's wedding (given that ah gong dote on both their daughters the most). besides that, the daughter didnt even serve tea to ah gong during the tea ceremony! only serve to the parents and other uncles aunties. look how 'filial' they are. can you imagine how hurt ah gong must have felt given that he always dote on them the most. that's it, the ending result of you showing favouritism in this family. not that i blame ah gong for such things, but seriously, haven't you got the eyes to see who really cares for you and stuff. why is your heart forever with them. why hadn't you love me once like how you love them.

all in all, i just hated the fact that they nvr even respect ah gong in the first place and ah gong still continues to do so much for them... why? i can never really understand this.

anyway, exam's are OVER. and i'm unofficially a graduate of ngee ann (: