will you still notice my backview?

Today, my boyfriend told me that he loved me.

When I asked why, he took out a list. It was 337 reasons long, and he said he had a pen in his back pocket in case he remembered any new ones.

His love gives me hope.

isn't this sweet?! too bad. that boyfriend doesn't belong to me ha!

just a random note. why isnt my hair long enough to tie this :(

anyways,
have you ever thought of this when you were young?

nurses with doctors

lawyers with judges/lawyers

teachers with teachers/principals

accountants with auditors

actor with actress

prince with princess

and the list goes on.

i used to have this mindset and had to admit it still stands right now. was having a casual chat with parents that very morning and they simply blurted out "gal, you're just too innocent. things were never as greatly match all the while. just like us."

did i ever say my parents got married after knowing each other for less than 6mths. yes. thats fate i guess.

if so, have you found the other part of you?

mango sales was awesome :D got a cardigan for myself. who's with me for charles and keith sales?? wanna get a heels i saw...

an extract of how bored a sunday could be for me.

-ling ♥ is eighteen.. says:

*LOL. i cant believe i just crapped a rc topic with you

[L-A-M-E-] [HQH] [mynamelah] says:

*LOLL!

*maybe you should create one mouse hunt topic with jess.

*LOLLL!

-ling ♥ is eighteen.. says:

*OMG! NOOO

[L-A-M-E-] [HQH] [mynamelah] says:

*that would be even fun.

-ling ♥ is eighteen.. says:

*i am so anti mouse hunt

*LOL

[L-A-M-E-] [HQH] [mynamelah] says:

*no wonder you not even using a mouse for your laptop.

*-PROVEN-

-ling ♥ is eighteen.. says:

*omg =.="

met up with 2 darlings yesterday for our weekly dinner :) this time round its at old airport road, the cheap and yummy food haven! [oops sorry jie, nvr visit you]

we actually ate many types of food: ou lua, char kuey teow, mini steamboat, chicken wings, satay, one jumbo sugar cane! and we indeed were at our happiest moment for the month :D

so............ here's an evidence of our joyful faces!

sometimes, i really treasure you gals whom are so cute that will tell me "i want you okay!"

love you both!

today's the worst day in 2010. the day i cried that hard. my heart hurts that much.

everything's not going on smoothly these days.

i must be damm foolish to think that they dont want me. or is that true?

i'm just being emo on a monday, pls ignore me.

"There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroad, afraid, confused, without a roadmap. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. Of course when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back."

but who can tell me why am i always the unlucky one faced with such situations. why am i the one always being left behind by others. 7 yrs ago, she left me behind without leaving any words. she said she love and dote me the most. she wanted to see her favourite granddaughter to get married and pour her a cup of tea. before i was even matured and understand her teachings, she left me. behind. and being that girl, i had to endure all the pains and sufferings. and eventually it became my weakest point in life. just the mention of her, i will cry. i am not weak, i'm just not strong enough to overcome this darkest moment.

你知道一个人的离开，最伤心的并不是你离她而去，而是你最后选择放下她。

this is why i never like losing anyone. because i myself is still groping my way in the dark in order to walk out of the first experience.

but do you know? no. its will you ever know?

falling in love with this song:

the lyrics fits it all.

was kinda addicted to korean dramas again. together with the world cup fever HA!

here's one that i've watched every wkday when i'm home from work. i suddenly treasure cable alot :D

you're beautiful - yeap thats the drama title.

and inside there's a second male lead thats so.. cute. dar, he can fight with your kim bum okay :P

he's like the usual perfect guy in every gal's dream. in the show, he's the little guardian angel that will always look after the girl he loves even if she didnt repay his love in the end. he continues on to look after her, and pick her up whenever she falls. he's her soul mate literally.

if only such things happened in reality too.

jung yong hwa :)

*squeals* i know he's cute! :D such cute guys are rare!

a random thought to post such a topic : rules in the house :)

so do you guys have any house rules set by your parents since young? there's couple of mine.

1) no staying overnight out without proper reasons (acceptable reasons are countdown, best friends house, holidays) and must be notified in advance

2) no staying out late after 11pm. (currently extended to 12am on fridays)

3) no food to be consumed in rooms.

4) breakfast, lunch and dinner must be eaten together as a family and in the dining room. only supper is allowed to be consumed while watching tv.

5) no chatting over the phone and usage of laptops after 12am.

6) no overseas holiday if didnt achieve good results in studies or meet their expectations.

7) must pick up their calls when out, never had more than 3missed calls. smses to let them know your location will be fine too if you happened to be in a movie.

these are some that i can think of currently. i bet there're simply more hahas. despite the fact some rules are really (*&^%$# still, i know they love me as much as i do. who aint angry with their own parents for such lame rules yet all the time, we kinda patch up and love them as always ~~ thats how stubborn us kids are. refuse to admit defeat and say sorry to them, but all the time we will make up through our little actions.

now the more i know they were the ones that will nvr give up on me and stop loving me. hence the more i should make them proud and achieve their hopes on me. if they can be happie and proud of their daughter, why not? so what if i'm not living my life for myself. at least i live, just for their sake. and because of their existence, i have the determination to move on and strive further.

i broken too many promises, i know. but daddy mommy, dont worry, i wont break the pact i made with you.

HAPPIE DADDY DAY! you know i'm still the little gal that will stay by your side. though this yr i almost lost you, thanks for being alive and make our family closer and stronger :) you know for sure, you're the awesome dad and I LOVE YOU.

have you heard that daughters are daddy's last life girlfriends? hahas. if thats the case, i'm so glad that this life i will be able to love him more and take care of him forever.

oh gosh. this is so cool aye!

*squeals* i sense danger the moment i step my foot out.

this week been a pretty ups and down for me. work's not been pleasant for some circumstances. though i'm still blessed with fellow awesome colleagues :D told all the story to dar, she's been the cool hougang mate HA! nvr fail to complain to each other and gossips abt our "wonderful" day life LOL. my parents always ask "eh you two got so many things to talk about ah?!" actually i also dunno wad are we talking about at times! i guess they are crap topics yet it click us both hahaha. getting confused?! cos i'm too!

so last friday 3 of us had our best night so far in 2010! girls sleepover par-teh! mommy bought 10 chicken wings *scream wow* and we finished it! OMG. cant believe how much fats we incurred. dar was helping me edit my fabulous report whereas jess leh! slept =.=" always say wanna stay up but end up she's the first to slp! and she slept with her eyes UN-closed plus she's a total mouse hunt addict! ask me help her sound the horn at 3am faints. i start to worry for dawn HAHA.

if you see codes up there instead of photos, then dont worry, thats nothing wrong with ur com! hahas. cos our dear huiling com is snail mover so.... photos will be uploaded hmmm. few months later?

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i should be relieved. i should be happie. i should be glad that.... you finally taking your next step in your life and really move on.

i guess i am gonna be a strong gurl who can face all the difficulties in life. people, next time if you happened to see me tear, just drop me a tissue and i will be fine :)

oh yes! this yr i've got a new experience of sobbing on buses!!!! omg its awesome. just sit by the window plug in your ipod, look through all the cars driving past... so what if you miss your stop! its the heartfelt saddness that has all been relieved that matters!wonder when's my fourth time.

on a random note,

HAPPIE BIRTHDAY AUNTIE! navy blue shimmering ribbon hairclip just for you :) [fyi, its dar's mommy]

when's the last time you played hide and seek? i think i'm playing it every single night. but this time round, the rules isnt the same anymore.

a drama i watched long time ago yet it flashed through my mind at this hour :)

omg if you're thinking that its just a plain bag with a crocodile then you're so damm wrong! cos its soo freaking pretty!!!!! my target now for me to save up. mommy, you say you love me right :D

*dar! arent i awesome! i found this photo eventually wahaha!*

really can understand how you feel. hearing each other's grumble is the best thing one could live with. now i finally understand the meaning of friends are friends. colleagues are really just colleagues. yes no doubt, there are laughters, jokes, mockery, "bullying", etc. but once everything is over, they are just really o-v-e-r. we have to get back to reality that we're just acquaintances.

i think this blog is getting real emo somedays. a place whr i rant and spill my thoughts.

things not looking good. theres some freaking error in my plagarism system which made me cant submit. arghs. yes thinking abt it wont help. so i am psycho-ing myself this "i shall not think abt that" .. why isnt it working heh. everything starts to come in. wad if i cant submit on time. minus mark. cant attain my result. HOW! i need this to bring me in uni. i dun wanna disappoint my parents. stop flowing into my mind you evil thoughts.

there's once when i told someone, "if giving up my interests will make my parents happie, why not?" afterall. they only have got me, one and only daughter. but i should be glad cos i have them both.

* i really miss yesterday's night* oh! i got my dual screen samsung cam! its so chiooooo.

live update: south korea vs greece : 2-0

which is yours?! omg this is so cute HEEE!

omg this is stunning and chio right. if only.. i could tour this awesome place after grad.

pretty ay!!!! one day i shall master the skill of tying this way :D

if you think they are pretty, you're with me :D

its been a rewarding week with ups and down.

gal just taught me this international handsign and i realised i knew it long ago! HA!